you shouldn't be afraid to feel special. all the people who want you to be just like them, probably suck. they're afraid of individuality. don't conform if its not you! if you're different, embrace it. you don't have to shout it all over the place, if you don't want to. but fuck anyone who tries to tell you how to feel and act. it's all up to you.
I understand totally. Because I grew up in the "hood", I'm not supposed to be intelligent. People are always so surprised that I am educated. I hate when I hear white people say, " Oh, he speaks so well", like I'm supposed to speak some kind of broken English that sounds foreign. People seemed so surprised that I'm not loud and obnoxious, or that I try to eat healthy foods. Or that I drive a nice car, or where I live. The list goes on and on. However, I learned early in life to not concern myself with other people's ignorance and to just do me. The brothers say I'm trying to be white, ignorant whites think I'm a drug dealer. Drug dealers think I'm a the police. It never ends and probably never will as long as so may people try to control what others think and do.