Something is wrong with me.

I've been suspecting that something is wrong with me for some time now.

I have extreme anxiety.
I have severe depression.
I feel disconnected from the world.
I am extremely forgetful (I'll sometimes stop in the middle of a sentence and not have any idea what I was talking about)
I constantly talk to myself
I struggle to cope in social situations. Meeting new people is very stressful to me.
I sometimes suddenly get very angry, and I completely lose my temper for no apparent reason.

Can anyone confirm that I have some sort of mental problem, or can anyone tell me I'm okay?

 

Maybe you have Social Phobia, Agorophobia, Generalised Anxiety and maybe Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (but I don't know you past), which can lead to Depression, however I am not qualified to diagnose you so I suggest you go to the GP and seek a referral to a Psychiatrist who is more able and qualified to diagnose you and importantly direct the best treatment for you. I hope you do seek professional help and you gain from such help.

 

Maybe you have MS..

 

you are admitting this to yourself...well done....yes...you absolutely have some problems that will only get worse unless you deal with it

family doctor is the person you neeed to talk with..asap.good luck

 

It seems to me the OP has stated the symptoms of anti-depression medication commercials verbatim.

 

Thanks for confirming...
I can't afford any medical treatment or check-ups.
How would I go about dealing with it?

 

So you're moody and inconsistent, doesn't mean you have mental problems. I talk to myself all the time. I'm my best friend, my jokes are the funniest. I have mood swings like everyone else. I get angry over silly things. I don't think I have a problem.

According to most people I should be seeing doctors and taking pills and all that jazz. Bullshit. Go and get some fresh air. Find a hobby. Get your mind off things. The more you concern yourself with your problems, the worse they'll become. It's the vicious cycle of stress.

Unfortunately doctors and drug scripts are advised too soon. You think you have a problem and admitted it so now's the time to change your ways and see how it goes. If you're still having problems after life changes, by all means see someone.

 

It definitely sounds like you have some mental health issues. A psychological disorder is defined as any pattern of behavior that causes people significant distress, causes them to harm themselves or others, or harms their ability to function in every day life.
Everything you mentioned causes distress and affects your ability to live a normal life.
It would be wonderful if you could post on here and one of us could reply with a solution and bam you'd be fixed, but you know things can't work that way.
I highly suggest you talk to your GP and ask to be referred to a counselor, psychologist, or psychiatrist. There IS help and hope for you.
However, I can promise you that sitting around just thinking about your misery (not saying you do that all the time) will not get you anywhere. In order to get help you have to want help and want to get better.

(I'm currently in school for psychology and on the road to med school. If you need someone to just talk to, feel free to write me.)

 

It sounds like you have some symptioms that could be any one of serious 'condition's. lots of people have mental health issues. check out a psychologist(preferably you won't need a psychiatrist, the difference is that a psychiatrist prescribes drugs.) and find out how you can learn some coping skills before it gets worse! be glad you don't have delusions too. or maybe you do 0.o lol

 

If you cannot afford a Doctor because of your circumstances aren't you entitled to free medical treatment and care? You would be if you lived in my Country. Is there any possibility your family can contribute?

 

I am not, sadly. Also, my family has offered to pay for a few sessions of a psychologist's time. I feel more comfortable talking about my problems on here than I would talking about them to a stranger.

Also, on a side note, could acid help me in any way?

 

i wouldn't recommend a psychedelic to someone in your current emotional situation

whatever insight LSD may bring, you could find in a different way, like meditation or therapy (or other ways) without shocking your brain and possibly doing more harm than good

when you say you feel disconnected from the world, could you go into more detail?

 

Sometimes I just stare blankly at nothing, not thinking about anything. My girlfriend and parents have told me I do this for minutes, but when I snap out of it, it seems like only a few seconds to me.

I sometimes feel like I have no personality. I don't feel like an actual person. Hard to explain


I want to thank everyone for taking the time to leave a reply.

 

Maybe you should start with this, are you currently doing any recreational substances? like alcohol, or weed, or even cigs, you get the point.
if you do, maybe they are affecting you in someway when your sober. You would need a nice break. Anything that alters your thoughts and the way you view things can have an affect on you especially if you have been doing them long term

if not, well then, you need to go out and find something to snap out of the way you are thinking. You may not feel comfortable talking about your problems with someone, but it will help a lot. Just think of it this way, you are talking to strangers right now, strangers that want to help you. A psychologist is there to help you, they want to help you that's why many pick that profession, a lot of them have gone through same problems as the people they get

 

Sounds like an awful state. I have had this severity before. That disconnected is also referred to as disassociated. Its a feeling of being completely unreachable and not easily reassured. It's a scary feeling. I had a lot of talk therapy, but ultimately needed medication.

OK bring it on skeptics! Meds are over prescribed and only for the weak.

 

I go through the same stuff except I don't talk to myself get suddenly angry and I'm not forgetful. I have aspergers and if you don't have it you don't know what living with it is like. I've just given up. I figure no one cares about me so why should I care about anyone else?

 

yeah, dissociation sucks. i experienced something similar with a condition called depersonalization disorder. meds are always an option, but be sure to find a doctor who listens if you decide to go that route

do you have a history of trauma, Impending Confusion? a lot of what you described has happened with me, because of some really fucked up childhood stuff. meds were a part of my treatment but therapy has really taken me a long way and i would say that having someone who specializes in trauma has made life a million times better, being able to work through a lot of the danger i see in people and the anxiety, depression, and anger i feel is slowly getting better and easier to deal with day to day.

 

If you want it bad enough you can help yourself. Cleanse your system of toxins an eat healthy and exercise and or do yoga. See how you feel after that.

 

if you don't have the money for medical care, you may be eligible for medicaid or other services (us)

there are also some free and low-cost community health centers

you may want to try checking out the book "curing depression naturally with chinese medicine" by bob flaws

taking a break from drugs for a while might be good for you

not eating raw, cold, or processed foods might help. try fresh, lightly cooked whole foods served warm. don't even drink water cold

try doing a meditation practice

try getting some regular exercise, a half hour per day of light aerobic activity, like walking. sweating too much is bad though, not any harder than enough to break a light sweat

don't ejaculate too much, especially during the winter time. when you do ejaculate, do it during sex rather than masturbating

try to get at least 10 minutes of fresh air each day, and avoid sitting and starring at a computer screen all day

 

Repeated emotional neglect in childhood can lead to an adulthood of post trauma reactions. It is helpful to have sessions with a mental health professional and detail out significant episodes and how the root family played into it.