I've been single for almost 3 years. I thought I wanted a relationship, but now that I have one I'm really not sure that this is what I want. I mean, when I spend days at a time with him, it's really too much. It's too intense. I'm used to being alone and then all of this condensed time with one person... UH! I don't know. Also, I think I feel this way because maybe him and I aren't supposed to be together. We met randomly and it was great! Both like minded, into crazy conspiricy theories, spirituality, etc... But there's something missing. Sexually, I couldn't ask for anything better... unless we could just have sex all day all night! hehe. Anyway, he is extremely inspiring to me, he makes me feel like I used to feel when I thought about the future, he fuels my dreams to live off the grid and be self sufficient, yet... I feel restless now. He doesn't have children, I do. I hold down a mainstream corporate job in the city and I'm trying to keep a stable life for my daughter. He doesn't hold down a typical job and can roam from place to place as he sees fit. Before I had my daughter, I would be right beside him. Spending months in Cali until after harvest and then doing whatever I want to. But, it's all risky business to me now and I have too much to lose if things didn't go as planned. So, I'm questioning whether I should allow this relationship to continue or end it now and just remain good friends before emotions get too intense. I feel like if I end it now that I might regret not jumping into this relationship when it is available to me, considering I've been wanting to be with someone now for quite some time. But, on the other hand, I don't want to jump into a relationship with someone just to do it. When it doesn't feel right and when I know that even if I'm in a relationship with this person, there will still probably be many months of being alone anyways... unless I decide to take off with him on a whim. *Sigh... I don't know....
Maybe tell him it's nothing personal, but you want to take it easy. Just stop spending as much time with him, then decide what you'd like to do, once you've not been around him.
