sometimes i feel like everyone's a stranger

all but one of the friendships i've made are with people who are too far away to see. train rides away, and the trains shut down at night. everyone makes plans or goes to sleep. so here i am, a little after midnight, at a loss

i don't have very many friends i can speak with this late. in all honesty i don't have many friends at all. pretty much one i would talk to this late, we often text around this time if we need to talk, but she hasn't responded so i won't call because she's probably sleeping

i dunno what i'm trying to say. i'm in a city, i walk by people every day, we all have our heads down and go about our business like we don't even see each other

where is everybody?

this is really bothering me at the moment. it probably won't matter in the morning, but i need someone to talk to now, and it's really a problem that i can't find a single person in this sea of people

 

Whats going on sister. You are not alone

 

I'm Pretty Sure CherokeeMist Is A Boi....



Cheers Glen.

 

I totally understand. There were times in my life I thought certain people were my good, true friends forever and EVER...and I wasn't even a young easily fooled woman then! Anyway, I've come to the conclusion that people that are honest and true have a harder time "making friends" than those that are somewhat lying manipulators.

I'm not saying there aren't some good people out there somewhere, but IMHO they are far apart and damn few between. I know people here, locally, but literally no one I actually would have a desire to talk to right now. My one true friend now lives in Oregon and my true-friend-cousin lives in Nevada - both on the other side of the US.

This place, hf, is a good place to vent, talk, and/or find something to make me laugh. Late at night I'm actually grateful for the internet.

 

Glen is correct

i am a boi

sometimes i just like someone to talk to, to let me know there are people around. i dunno, it's a feeling i've had for a long time. and i have a sense it isn't something unique to me.

really, a lot of has to do with missing the girl i was dating who is in rehab and has been for the last 4 months, and the way we were, i could not call her and connect the way i'm wanting to. but the way i idealize a relationship to be, the way we could have had it, i miss what wasn't there. same goes for wishing someone could do the same with me, i want to have a friend who would call me late, i'm up often and i don't feel like many people feel close with me

i'm in a weird mood and i don't think i'm making much sense. sorry people

i just want to get back to classes and bury myself in my work. winter break is far too long and this is no fair!


EDIT: Lynnbrown, thanks for your reply. i've had a really hard time connecting with people on a genuine level, every time i've faked it it works but when i try to get *real* people seem to back off, it's really getting me down. the people that seem to stick around, oddly enough, are people like me that have "issues" for lack of a more eloquent way to put it.

totally agree that HF is a great place to vent, so much random stuff to read and all, hah love it

 

No Need To Apologise, We All Have Our Strange Days....



Cheers Glen.

 

sorry, my bad, but either way you are not alone.

 

Everyone is a stranger no one will live up to your expectations life is a sequence f disappointing events and people

 

op..yeah i know the feeling its the pits. sometimes i escape reality with working long hours. but most times im happy within myself. i'm always thinking my own head is a bad neighborhood.

 

I've felt alone all my life it's sad some times but I get by u can too

 

Wow, Why So Dark, I'm Nearly Three Times Your Age And I Couldn't

Agree Less With Your Post.

True, Life Has It's Ups And Downs, But To Describe Life As A Sequence

Of Disappointing Events And People Is Stretching The Truth A Bit....



Cheers Glen.

 

I see this sign in a lot of little pubs

 

Lol ok a sequence of disappointing events with some moments of minor joy

 

i'm positive that based on what i've heard people say which sounds the most honest, that people want to give others chances, we've just been conditioned to mind our own business and fear connections with those around us. i don't think we naturally want to avoid making friends, it's just that these days, we have our own little circles, our phones to text those we know, we keep our heads down to those around us (sometimes and generally, there are exceptions as always)

when it comes down to it, i see things as basically positive. the chances i've had to make friends that have failed have just been positive things from the start that have been clouded and broken by shitty things that don't even really exist, things we made up to try to make it work when what would make it work was already there

i go to a meditation center weekly, and it's remarkable how when people get to talking about what they want to work on, we all really want to be better people to those around us, more compassionate and more aware and more connected to people we call strangers. i am confident in extrapolating that sentiment to everyone else, even if they don't know it

BTW i looove that sign at the bar r0llinstoned haha love it

 

I kind of feel the same way. I dont really go out of my way to try and make new friends, but i befriend most people at my work, and some of the people there turn into actual friends who i hang out with outside of work.
I feel you on the cell phone and circle or friends though.

and yea its a cool sign, i have a picture of one i took at a scottish pub last year, somewhere on my computer.

I like it because everyone of your friends was a stranger before you met them and eventually became friends with them

 

Everyone is indeed a stranger, but as long as you are stranger than them you will never get acquainted.

 

Us humans aren't too good at reaching out to each other, are we? I can totally relate to loneliness. My more worrisome phenomenon though is being very lonely among a whole bunch of people. It's very hard to be connected at times. I hope you find more friends soon. Until then, there's always HF.

 

I'm glad I came across this thread because I was thinking of posting someting similar a few days ago. We all hope you feel better