I.V. MDPV up to 450mg doses

I recently came in contact with 2g's of mdpv from a trusted vendor. I decided to give it another go after a few years away from it. First I started out with 3mg i.v. to be safe, as I know it's a very strong stimulant. Within no time I was eyeballing out doses and went through a gram in about two days. My ex gf snorted a half gram over about 4 days. I finished off the bag with a stupid 450mg dose all at once. I swear I should have died. I thought I was going to, my heart rate was through the fucking roof. ***NOTE: Do not dose this high or ever use my doses as a source for safe dosing*** It was unbelievable.

 

Pehaps this may come off as callous but I must say that you make terrible threads. You continue to make these threads with where you Inject obscene amount of drugs, provide no real pertinent information, and don't even relay us a trip report.


I'm not going to bother suggesting you seek help and what not because that has been addressed ad nauseuem, however in the future do you think you can make these type of posts in a preexisting thread or perhaps utilize the journal function of Hipfotums?

 

I wasn't aware there was such strict guidelines to making a post.

 

I'll try to elaborate on my experiences with the MDPV lately and try to shed some light as to why I've been hitting the substances so heavy these past few years. If you can recall back a couple years ago I posted a thread about splitting up with an ex I had been in love with. She left me and it crushed me, at that time I was heavy into L and boomers and smoking the good tree, nothing compared to the use that would follow in the next few years though. As soon as she left I had an overwhelming realization of how deceiving she had been. I started taking large amounts of pure dex to try to self medicate. I ended up dating her best friend and living together for the past 3 or so years. In which time she pretty much brain washed me into thinking we were soul mates and my blind love made me fall for it. I have always been one to dwell in depression and self destruct. Some times I did what I did for the experience, to try and grow, other times, most of the time actually, I did it to self destruct. The last time I did MDPV was a suicide attempt. Having just recently breaking up with my ex and feeling completely alone in life. However, over the past couple months I have had a change in everything. A spiritual awakening in a sense. Okay, back to the MDPV..I don't take very detailed notes on my experiences, such as heart rate and what not, especially that experience, as I was not planning on being around after. What I can say is, it liquefied very easily, I was able to get all 450mg in one cc. After I banged it I experienced what felt like a cover put over my entire body and senses. Everything felt like it was going 100x as fast as it was, while going at normal speed. My heart rate went through the mother fucking roof. I walked out of the bathroom to go tell my best friend good bye and after that I sat down and waited to have a heart attack. It never came. I started hallucinating actual people with guns about to kick the door down. It was the most life like hallucinations I've ever had. I was up the whole night and finally came down the next day after full out tweak status that night. Sorry I can't offer much more about it. If anyone has an questions I'll do what I can to answer them.

 

Obviously there isn't which is why your thread is up, I just see it more as a consideration to others. Now if your original posts entailed more info like your subsequent post on why you take this drug, it's effects and what not beyond 'I take this drug in a dangerously excessive amount, don't do it' then I would not have commented and perhaps you can get some worthwhile advice if that's what you care to hear.

I don't have much advice to lend and have some self destruction tendencies myself but MDPV can be pretty frightening and it's a pretty crappy drug.

 

What do you hope to accomplish by continuously IVing ridiculous doses of drugs? If you're trying to kill yourself, there's better ways to do it. I think you're seeking attention, which is why you are making these threads. You sound very lonely and hurt. You sound like you have been betrayed by ones you love and you think maybe if you push your physical body with drugs that somewhere along the way you will have a magical mental click that makes it all ok. It won't happen. You might have a stroke, but that's it. If you want the pain to stop you need to get off these extremely dangerous destructive behaviors of yours and take a good hard look at an inpatient program. Talk to a psychologist. Talk to a social worker. This road does not lead to getting better and meeting people who love you truly and don't betray you. It only leads to loneliness and death.

 

Hopefully you find your true path in life before you really do something life threatening. Everyone has a place in this world, you just need to find your direction. Try picking up hobbies or interests you've never had the time to do to take your mind off the bad shit.

Hopefully you have a better 2013

 

Things are getting better. Was just sharing an experience Writer. Sorry if I don't meet the standards most expect. I am me, I am getting love in my life finally, I've had and will always have a very hard time understanding everything. I was hoping my experiences and what I have went through and will go through might help someone else out there. Maybe relate to me in a way where they find an understanding without the having to go over all the trouble and pain. I have been reckless with most of my drug binges. I just figured this was a forum where every experience was considered educational. Even if thought of as bad, it's still in one way or another, new information.

 

I have rarely done mdpv. I tried it twice 5 years ago, two 7mg bumps through out a night and flushed the rest of the 5g's. I then did it again a few years later about 3 or 4 times. 10-14mg bumps and didn't touch it again until just recently. Not something I will ever be doing again. I was in a really low place in life. I am feeling better then ever though. With good people around me perhaps things may continue to get better.

 

I do value the inherent educational aspect your threads have but I am much more concerned for your life and well-being than anything. I would be happier if you were not contributing to the knowledge base of research chemical overdosing I'm glad things are getting better for you. It's important to understand that to a degree we construct the reality we live in around us, and that reality turns back in to construct us, so it's important to care for both our selves and also the environment we are keeping our selves in

 

Fuck mdpv. That shit got a bunch of my friends. I wonder what ever happened to them...
In my experience, mdpv is very useful for justifying horrible, horrible things.