Read this if you want, its boring.

I've smoked my morning bowl, before that I had my morning tea and cigarette, but now what the hell am I supposed to do. I'm broke as fuck so anything that costs money is out, I could clean my disaster of a room since its my living space I really only go upstairs to eat and get water and sometimes get trapped talking to family members. Yeah I am a loser that lives at my moms house at the age of 23 in the basement even. For now anyways. Then later maybe I'll go drink some beers with my dad who's staying with my moms sisters friend...I won't go into all the unusual shit such as having stepgrandparents and my moms side of the family mostly hating my dads side because of an encounter, my moms side was not impressed so drama, drama, drama and I won't go into any more of it.

Yesterday I explained to my therapist I cannot become mentally healthy living in this society, she was unable to deny any of what I said. Yet I'm not even doing anything about it I sit in my room typing on the computer on forums, listening to music sometimes I watch movies and if no one else besides my brother is home I might venture upstairs to watch movies. I go and visit my dad rather often but don't do much there either. I suppose its hard trying to figure out what to do in a society you cannot function in and would choose not to even if you could. I keep wondering what I should do with myself. I'm currently waiting on SSI, fuck you(preemtive response to possible comments) this society has drained me and pushed me to the brink of insanity no ones going to hire someone all fucked in the head. I want to find an alternative but I don't see what else to survive on even both my parents are doing worse and worse financially so I need my own income otherwise I will have no choice but to go to goodwill and get a big ass back pack and stuff everything I might need and head out at least it will be spring soon not sure what I'd do about cold nights though. They wont want me to but they must know at least subconciously they cannot afford to support me financially and I can't get a job. Or maybe I could find a commune type situation but I don't really know of any....basically I just don't know what the hell to do with myself.

That is what is going on in my stoned mind, thinking of all the potential situations that could arise but in a calm manner rather than a 'Oh fuck, what am I going to do!' manner.

 

Do you have a degree or something?

 

go get a dishwasher job at a restaurant

 

what if they are allergic to soap. like hippies. ok.. im:leaving:

 

Do something, get out and find something to occupy your time and make some money.

 

The old spend money on drugs, complain you have no money.

 

It's hard to say this without coming across as kind of a dick, but you need to get your shit together. Take part in society, I promise you that it is better than what you're doing now.

 

I do not fit in society is an excuse to stay in a comfortable rut. I don't fit in either but I always found jobs with other misfits. One restaurant hired me when I applied and interviewed wearing a patch bowler hat and a black cape. Some places love misfits.

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You have enough funds for your morning bowl, access to the net, food, a roof over your head, tv and get to have a beer with your dad.

Not too shabby.

Perhaps you are living far better than you perceive yourself to be.

Changes only happen when you make them happen, ball is in your court.

 

For some people, it's hard to find their niche in the world. That has certainly been the case with me. I still haven't got things figured out as far as what I am going to do with my life... and I am nearly 32. But let's face it, most of what people do (or think they need to do) in this world is bullshit. We're here to live life and enjoy our time here, but sometimes it just doesn't seem possible.

 

lol @ all the people saying 'get a job'.
Ignorance is a highly valued good in this society apparently.

Nobody can give you any advise what to do about your situation. It is your life and your responsibility, your feelings and emotions. That being said, there are a billion ways to live your live and there is one in there for you too.

I too did not follow the 'usual' path and I can sympathise with your feelings about society etc. The only general advise I can give you is that crying about it won't help you much.

 

true dat.

but you initially have to go out and BE social to find other people to be antisocial with.

 

I feel you. Its hard living in a place you'd much rather not be a part of. If anything, I would suggest a hobby, find something that makes you happy, for me its art, music and writing. I find these help me to express emotions that I just cant speak. Also, looking for voluntary work could help you break free a little, not long ago I was stuck in that place, couldnt even look out of the window without feeling a strange resentment of society and the way things work right now. Something hit me and I decided I needed to go out and do something or I'd forever be the recluse that I was. So I did, I got a job volunteering at an animal shelter, it made me very happy, I soon expanded what I was doing and worked as often as possible. Helping homeless people also opened my eyes to just how wrong society is, but helped me to also see that everybody is human, and most just want the same thing.

If you keep yourself locked away then it will stsy that way. Its not healthy and I think you realise that too.

 

i don't need niches, nor bowls of anything but soup, with a lot of noodles in it.
the only thing i need is to not be robbed of my own imagination, by other people's demands for attention. that and of course the bear neccessities of life.

 

No, I did not make it through college.

 

I was thinking more of Head shops or places like that...as far as applying for any jobs. I am sure a restaurant might prefer someone who can wash dishes quickly I tried being a waitress when I was 17 and that was a major fail.

 

Why should I want to take part in this society, it sucks.....even if I could function in it. At least I haven't sold my soul yet which is what participating in this society would be.

 

Take some responsibility for yourself for fuck sake! I'm not going to say get a job or whatever,do what the fuck you like, but do something. Wallowing in self pity is not cool on any level!

 

yeah, you sound so happy hiding in the parents' basement after all.

 

Maybe work where your parents work. They might help you get a job there.