I`m a bisexual who once was homophobic trying to hide my sexuality.

I had a sexual experience with a boy when I was 4 & he was also 4. I didn`t really enjoy it since I was only a little kid at the time, but at the age of 6 I had a sexual experience with a girl & ever since then, I had always been interested in girls. I remember being 11 & talking to my aunt about how I liked looking at girls boobs & butts, but I told her only because I wished I had big boobs myself (really I was very attracted to the female body). I had a crush on a girl for the first time in 6th grade, but never acted upon it, only fantisized about the girl. When 8th grade came along, there were tons of girls coming out as bisexual, though I would still hide my sexuality & made fun of all the girls in the locker room who were bisexual by saying it was nasty & all of that nonsense. I came out as bisexual in 9th grade & was threatened to be beaten up so I told everyone I was only doing it because everyone else was doing it. The summer going into 1Oth grade I had my first sexual experience as a teenager & realize I love the female body WAY more than I enjoy the male body. I`m now 17, in the 11th grade & have had more experience with females such as dating & more sexual experience. I`m totally out of the closet now. Many of my guy friends always tell me how they feel that I`m a lesbian since I`ve never had penetrative sex with a guy. I`m a bit confused because I DO like guys emotionally, but not too much sexually unless they`re the ones doing things to me. With females though, I get emotionally & sexually attracted. If a girl wants to get physical, I never say no to pleasing her because it turns me on. With guys, I don`t get turned on by pleasing them. Does this make me a lesbian? Lesbian tendancies? I`m confused. I feel more pansexual than anything though. I`m not all about getting down & dirty. I honestly consider myself a soul seeker because I`m open to falling in love with the person as a whole... for who they are & not what they possess in their pants. Just curious....... :daisy:

 

lesbanian

 

haha, right on. :sunny:

 

na,don't agree - bi.

bi but maybe 4 on the kinsey scale; sounds like she still likes sex with guys, or cocks, even if she hasn't had penetrative sex, but is much more emotionally and physically attracted to her own sex.

Why are lables important anyway? just go with your own sexual and emotional flow. If you like the human body then why reject half of the species. And, as the OP says - it's not just the physical but the whole anyway.

Simon :sunny:

 

I agree! What I was going to say exactly!

 

you guys don't be dicks and call her lez instead help her or well politely fuck off she's obviously bi insecure and needs advice I know how it feels to be bi and homophobic without really knowing what to do and well to you all if you're not part of the solution you're part of the problem