So I recently made a thread about exes of mine that have been getting remixed up in my life of late. Well, the fact is, I'm still in love with one of them (the only one I would say I've ever loved in the first place) and I can't keep denying it. Ever since I met her again, I've been failing hard with every other woman and I think its because none of them are her. The other night I was supposed to go on a double date with a friend of mine and we were going to go out dancing at an event, but we got there too late and ended up going to a rave, then we ended up hippieflipping and I just felt awkward with the girls the whole time (not usually how I am when I'm tripping) and I realized that it was because it wasn't what I really wanted. I figured out exactly what was happening. For the whole trip, I couldn't dance with her. It literally felt like we were two north ends of a magnet or something. I think what was happening is that I've been looking for girls who I see myself in. The gril I was going out with even looks just like me (but in a sexy blonde way). And I realized the problem: If I'm an anode, I should be looking for a cathode. How am I supposed to bond with another anode? Anyways, when i got home, I had the urge to write poetry and the poem I wrote ended up being about this one girl. And its really good. I really want to read it to her and I want to win her back, but I'm not sure if she has a boyfriend or if she would find me creepy somehow. I'm kind of worried, because this is a fucking 13 page long deep ass poem i've just written and I can ask a girl out and be rejected but I don't think I'll have a fun time if I spill my heart out in verse and get rejected. Hopefully it'll work. I'm not sure how I'll do it but I will. One thing I know is that she definitely likes poetry, so at least it won't be completely lost... Either way, have any of you ever written/read poetry to/for a girl? How did it go?
A 13 page poem? Back when you were together, when things were good, would she have invested the time and interest to digest a 13 page poem? How long does it take you to read aloud? You might consider editing.
No we were younger and i fucked it up before that point not that long, pages of big writing. Maybe a little long like a couple minutes
OK. Just two suggestions, edit and practice reading it aloud, with the thought that the "performance" should hold her attention. I guess what I mean is that you should remember its not her responsibility to listen to the poem, its your delivery's responsibility to get (and keep) her interested in hearing the poem.
Who broke it off? If she did, forget about her and move on cause you'll have a snowballs chance in hell of winning her back.
I did, but I think I basically fucked up a test. Like I loved her but she didn't want to have sex yet so she would like bring up breaking up and, as my stupid adolescent self, I thought that as soon as someone had mentioned it, you had to go through with it, so I broke up with her -- but I didn't want to. I was confused. Like breaking up with her made me feel extremely sad. I was just really confused and fucked up the best thign I've ever had for myself. I saw her today and fuck if I don't feel the same wAY.
But how does she feel? The last thing you wanna do is read here a poem right after just some other guys dick.
The fact that you didn't have sex but felt "love" is definitely playing into this attraction you feel. Keep mindful of that. Perhaps ask her out? Forget the poem.. its a bit too strong.. 13 pages is something you'd give to your girlfriend you've been with for ages.
i think just askin' out for a coffee or somethin' an just tellin' her that,bout how it just got fucked up cos you were younger an confused.is the best way ta go.sounds like you were just feelin' pier pressure at the time from other guys.but in her reality you just dumped her cos she she would'nt lay ya.an if ya have'nt seen or spoken ta her in a long time,ya don't know what the scene is now.you could just keep the poem for her an if your lucky you can always give it ta her again if it becomes appropreate ta do so. ya, you would be very hurt given the fact your so inta her,if she just shrugged off your poem.i'd keep it simple hedge.find out what the score is first .hope ya get a second chance with her hedge,cos it sounds like you never really did forget her.goodluck with it all...
I agree with Roamy. Coffee sounds like a good idea. Then just probe her a bit to find out where she stands with her feelings. Then you'll know if you have a shot or not.
yes. ...just got to watch her chill with her bf for a bit. Feels like pure repression. Fuck being human.
OK OK so I bottled up my emotions for like a week until I was so freaked out that I couldn't smoke weed or study and I finally went and talked to her and it felt insanely good and she asked me to go have coffee with her next week (when not in the middle of a dramatic school environment) so imma read her the poem at that point...
