To quit or not to quit

I´m so torn apart. I keep thinking, maybe I should just quit for good, then I think I´ll might just have a 1 month brake...

I´ve been smoking weed for almost a year now, only on weekends in the beginning, then maybe 3-4 days a week after a while. I´ve had periods where I´ve not been smoking, but only because I was away from home.

I´m just finding it really hard to quit because it´s "just around the corner", then again I´m not even SURE I really want to quit. I guess my main concern is my health and lungs, we all smoke it with tobacco here in Sweden. Just the thought that I´ve been smoking tobacco without a filter is pretty nasty, and scary to be honest.

SO yeah, getting a vaporizer is kind of a good idea...

I stopped drinking when I started smoking weed; I guess I just went from one drug to another. Still I feel so much better with weed; and I would never wanna get back to alcohol. I only drank on weekends, but I drank way too much all the time... Of course I´m afraid I might get back to drinking if I stop smoking.

Overall I do feel much better since I started smoking weed, but it could also depend on some healing trips with LSD and Psilocybin too... My bulimia and really bad relationship to food and my body is almost entirely gone. My anxiety is gone. I really thought that feeling sad and depressed was normal, now I know that it´s not and I´m supposed to be happy. And I actually am, really happy nowadays.

Right now I´m at least thinking I´ll quit smoking until 4/20...

I just don't know what I should do with myself on the weekends right now. When I´m not with friends I´m at my boyfriends place and we usually smoke weed together. He will of course support me if I don't want to smoke, he can handle being withouth it pretty well. But I just get crazy bored and restless; at least that´s what it´s been like the last few times where I didn't have weed on weekends.

I´ve tried painting, watching movies, reading, knitting. No distraction worked out great. I´m hoping it gets easier after a while? Is there anything else I could try? I already exercise more or less daily; a lot of Yoga, and guess it wouldn't hurt to become more serious with meditation too!

What are your thoughts on all of this? Any experience with quitting?

Sometimes I just ask myself "Do I really need the weed?". Deep down, I´m pretty sure I would like to quit it forever... But that´s really deep down, It seems almost impossible never to smoke again.

Peace! :daisy:

 

On the topic of vaporizers & marijuana I actually went on Craigslist and saw an ad or 150 dollars vape beimg sold for 50 dollars so me being myself I jump on this bargain and went today to pick it up. It was used but I see used vaporizers on Craigslist all the time. And then when I got back to my house from a different city because it was about 20 miles away I hookedup the vaporizer and was using it while I heard a knock on my door. It definitely appeared to be a policeman and I don't know if he knew our truck but he stayed for about 10 or 15 Minutes before he left and I don't know if maybe the guy that sold it to us might have been a cop but my question is Would he have had to arrest us on the spot or can heyou come back for further questioning and how did he even know where I lived. I live in Virginia if thia helps...

 

The first few days after quitting are the toughest. But it's all about breaking your mental habit. You are not psychically addicted to weed, you just are used to doing it. So activity's like music or certain friends can remind you of this. The longer you go without smoking the less you will think about it. If you do manage to still until 4/20 your smoke then will be really good. A tolerance break does allot to remind you what is good about weed.

 

Is it having any negative effects? You might want to try and figure out why you want to quit. Or maybe taking a break would help you decide....I guess I am just confused why you are wanting to quit or if you just think you 'should' which is essentially up to you.

You have to actually really want to quit in order to do so, but if you're unsure and might just prefer a break well then that's not much motivation to quit.