I think I might be gay, but I just don't know.

I think I might be gay. It doesn't bother me at all what my sexuality is, I just want to know so I know who I am. I just want your opinion so I can be a little bit closer to finding out who I am.
- I'm a girl and I've only ever dated guys, but I've never felt anything for them, I think I just like the idea of having a boyfriend.
- Whenever I sleep with a guy I don't enjoy it. I've slept with 5 or 6 and it's all the same. Plus I never want to keep in contact with them afterwards and just ignore them if they ask me out.
- I've kissed girls and I liked it, but I was drunk, yet I get excited at the prospect of getting drunk because it means I might get to kiss a girl again,if you kind of get know what I mean.
Whenever I go out I end up kissing guys, but I don't know if that's because I've grown up thinking it's the conventional thing to do. But then I never want anything to do with them once we've kissed.
- In high school I thought I was in love with one of my female best friends for almost three years, in fact I was convinced, but then we went our separate ways for college and I lost those feelings quickly, so maybe it was just a phase.
- Lately it seems I've been physically attracted to girls more than guys.
- I've told a few friends that I might be a lesbian and a couple have just dismissed me, apparently I don't 'seem gay'.
- I love watching lesbian relationships on tv and in movies, I've seen almost every popular lesbian film and I'll start watching a show if I find out there are a lesbian couple in it.
Ok so after reading this I know it looks a bit one-sided but it feels a lot more complicated than that. I would really appreciate any opinions you have.
Thanks

 

Despite what others may tell you, only you can figure out what you really are. You don't even have to put a label on it really do you? If you like someone then that's great, whoever it is. You definitely seem to like girls, and you say you liked your friend for 3 years. That's a pretty long time! Just because the feelings disappeared after you separated doesn't necessarily mean it was just a phase. Some people just need the closeness in order for those feelings to stay. I think just doing what you want and experimenting is the best way of figuring out who you are and what you want. I'm still trying to understand myself too!

I'm sorry if this isn't very helpful, but if you have questions or whatever feel free to message just don't stress yourself out

 

Do you masturbate? What do you think about when you do it? Masturbation is one of the best ways to figure out who you are and what you like.

btw have you seen the movie The Kids Are Ok? What did you think of it?