I am confused I like to play with my ass and it feels good. I love wearing panties and dressing in womens clothes since i was 13 sneaking my moms stuff. Now I get excited if I see online a picture of a cock.
this all sounds very homosexual to me, but keep in mind there's no clear dividing lines in nature, so maybe you're just of the curious disposition
I don't think anybody here can tell you if you're gay. Some will tell you that you are, but that is something you will have to figure out for yourself.
Something I learned actually from a lady who was married to someone like you. Cross-dresser/Transvestite are terms that might better be applied in your case. Goggle them for additional info. My lady friend was married to a guy, he was totally straight in every way. Men didn't not turn him on at all. He had a fetish for wearing women's clothing and make-up,, and that was the only time he could get aroused. Yeah, they are a lot of gays who "dress up" but they have a different motive. What is your motive? Do you want to be seduced by a man or do you enjoy feminine clothing, thinking about being with a male? Lots of straight men enjoy anal stimuli so you can go by that. Good luck and let us know your feelings.