I have a kind of love hate thing with weed, because when I have it I can't stop smoking it and it's not always the best thing for me. Somehow I've managed to change my state of mind for a little while this time. I got some fire OG kush and some blue dream last Friday and decided to try only smoking on Friday, Saturday, and Sunday...and only after 420. So far so good. I made is for four days with this week and managed not to smoke any. Tonight will be fun. Smoking with little to no tolerance is so nice. Did I break the spell weed has on me? I'm not really sure. I'll have to see how I feel on Monday since it's a holiday and all. But, I think I can do it. I know I can if I want to. This is definitely the longest I've gone not smoking when I've had weed in many many years. I've gone longer when I don't have any in the house, but this is a new 20 year record.
Well weed is not physically addictive so this "spell" is all mental. Weed makes you feel good, so you want to use it all the time. The hardest part of a tolerance break is the first few days, but the key is keeping yourself busy so your mind is not on it. Once you get into the habit of being a weekend smoker it will be easier.
I've just come back from a two week vacation, during which I haven't touched the green, though it was offered to me several times by street dealers, surely reading my longish hair as a sure tell sign of doperdom. Before going I was back to smoking every day - mind you, only in the late evening, and then only one very petit joint (albeit of the strongest Sativa I could find). The first days of going cold turkey, I'll tend to feel rather energetic and much more capable of focusing, making it easier to actually finish reading books, write longer, more involved pieces, etc. that, unlike so much other every day drudgery, you NEED that extra brain capacity for. But eventually this lucidity will start to wane, not to mention it will begin to fully dawn on me that, though up till now happily sheltered from the worst of human misery, at times even quite happy, my life is that of an 'adult' who has to work for a living - which makes nightly excursions into that realm rife with meaning and enchantment which Mary Jane gives access to all the more enticing. I think that's her main appeal, that she'll in a sense 'spice up' a life that, over time, might come to seem rather dull and uneventful - because it is. It's common wisdom marijuana isn't 'bodily' addictive, only 'mentally' - but even apart from the problematic nature of this distinction, its active compounds' tendency to linger in the body, attaching to fatty tissues etc, doesn't only make our beloved green the easiest 'drug' to test for, showing up even weeks after last toking, but also means that even with very moderate regular usage, you're never quite back to full baseline - depending on age, metabolism, gender, etc. it can take around a month for those last tidbits of THC to clear from your system. Following like a year of daily smoking, I'd once before decided to quit the green for the time - only at the same time to go into all kinds of trying situations, both at work and in private, the resulting stress seriously impairing my feeling of well-being, quality of life, etc. But for which I knew a readily available (in Amsterdam) medicine. That first joint I smoked then was pure magic, almost like I imagine good, pure MDMA to be, and for a while I thought an acceptable regime would be: only on Friday, as a ritual heralding the weekend and flushing out any stress and negativity from the working week. But then as these go, I would find myself far too anxious for it to be Friday already, or be unable to sleep, or I'd find myself faced with some menial task which doesn't require full brain capacity, and which I knew would be made all the more enjoyable with just a hit of the Silver Haze. Long story short, I find that even with very moderate use, I'll over time lapse into a trance-like state where I'm sure as hell not 'high', but not entirely 'there' either. I'll be far more easily bummed out about things, find it harder to focus, and somewhere, at the back of my mind, there will constantly be this need for more excitement, titillation, more LIFE than the current situation allows, leading to feelings of despair, dissatisfaction, agitation, etc. But the thing is, I don't actually WANT the kind of excitement and stimulation this mood calls for - what I want might be to, say, finally get around to reading D.F. Wallace's Infinite Jest (which, by the way, has a considerable part devoted to just this topic), but which my fatigued, cranky, pot-hungover brain won't readily allow, leading me to seek alternative, more 'accessible' entertainment in music, television, video games - and more pot, obviously. So yeah, I've had many a time when I'd thought I'd hit on the golden ratio, the secret to 'mastering' MJ - but then she always sneaks up on me, leaving me no choice but to ban her from my life for the time. Only to go back to her eventually every time.
^That's a familiar self observation. I think sometimes the term psychological addiction can be underestimated. It can mean that when you stop using something, it affects you psychologically rather than physically. It doesn't necessarily mean that the addiction is all just psychological/mental. When you think of it that way: that quitting will have an adverse psychological impact, it seems like it could be at least as serious as a "physical" addiction. But, for me, weed isn't that addictive in either sense. It's just something I have a hard time not doing when it's within reach. I find it hard to believe I'm going to keep to my schedule without slipping, especially with a pretty good amount of very good weed...but I'm going to try for now. Last night was fun, except that I ate too much and fell asleep on the couch only to wake up at the appropriate time of 420AM. The kush completely knocks me out!
I tend to find it hard to restrain from smoking when you have it too. It's not the best method, but by dividing your weed into different bags for the day you can smoke them can help. So when you say you can smoke on Saturday, you already have a predetermined limit of how much weed you can smoke on Saturday. If its that hard, you'll just have to find another hobby
