should i kill myself?

Get a dog and name him "Gromit". You'll never be lonely again

 

You're the only one who can answer that.

You're going to have to give your own life meaning. And I promise you that things get better. And if that sounds cliche, like the kind of thing you hear over again, it's because other people have been there and know it get's better.

I hope it get better soon. Don't give up.

 

Leave town, go live where nobody knows you so you can make a new start. Sounds extreme? It's a hell of a lot less extreme than suicide.

 

If you have nothing, and you wouldn't mind losing your life, surely you could lose nothing by being outgoing and enjoying life.

If hollow friends are what you want, you can get them any night of the week. Either way, if you're not afraid to die, how are you afraid to go get what you really want?

You can do anything you want, and it's still doing what you want, and better than death. Go hop a train and see the world and make friends in new places.... do whatever. Nothing (in general) is any harder than you make it.

 

which ones?

 

Polish

 

and don't kill yourself, yolo

 

no don't, let me do it I need to satisfy my dark passenger like Dexter

 

huh, since when?

 

Good and you shouldn't for many reasons especially for the above.

I was in the hospital recently and one of the nurses came up to talk to me about me wanting to kill myself and she came right out and started talking about my how my family would feel, also that this is coming from a mother of 4 and i should think about that for a bit cause i know that would devastate me if one of my children killed themselves.

So i actually thought about it and realized how completely selfish i was thinking and acting. Thank god i was able to get the help i needed and i hope you do too, if you aren't already receiving mental health care. A good therapist and psychiatrist prescribing the right medication can do wonders for you.

I hope your feeling better and my advice was helpful

 

Hmmm. BTDT and dealt with family that wanted to and a friend that did.

If you don't have friends, go out and find some. You won't know until you look. Having a rough time with life? Welcome to life. You know last fall I ended my stint as a homeless person. That's getting bad, trust me. If I didn't mind muddy water, I could bathe in the river. And yes I did that a few times. And I did my laundry there, in fact. Begging for meals from a restaurant. Hell buddy, even though I did find a way to go to church, the pastor wouldn't help. Well, scratch that- he did and he didn't. And his mom would treat me to a Sunday dinner. That was good food. And I still, though I was dealing with a lot of depression and not having money to take care of myself, I found a way out- I still did what I could to help those worse off than myself. Sounds crazy, huh? Well I did. Did it make things better for me? Yes, eventually it did. Now I have a home. Which is good. I still have a rough row to hoe, but at least I have a roof over my head.

So when I tell you that tough times don't last but tough people do, I'm not kidding. So toughen up and go with the flow. There are times that you go with the flow and times that you don't. There are times that you need to fight the current to get to where you want. That takes discernment which comes with experience. You don't get it over night. I have no idea how young you are. I'm 43 and even though I feel like I've seen it all, I have only scratched the surface. And the same with you.

So talking about killing yourself is a really self-centered and selfish comment. And doing it is even worse.

You see, when my friend kilt himself, I wasn't sobbing endlessly thinking about how terrible life was gonna be. I mean, well yeah I had my moments of sorrow, but then I looked at it and I was thinking "WTF is this shit?" You see Wallace, we're talking about a guy that I used to go hunting and off roading with. Walk around the city at night looking for some poontang, hit up a bar or two and see if there's a fight that needs starting. Then one day he kilt himself. That selfish greedy little bastard. His friends cried for a little bit but then we expressed the anger and hatred we had for him. Talk about stupid.

So if you plan on killing yourself, save yourself the effort. Be kind to your family and the friends that you do have (and I know you have a few), just get in their face, swear like a sailor at them and tell them how much you hate them and never want to see them again. You want nothing to do with them. Insult them the best you can. And spit in their faces. Not the measly watery spit, but plant a big honking lugie right in their faces. Why? Because that's far more respectful of them than killing yourself. If you kill yourself you're not making things any better for yourself, and it's showing the highest level of hatred and disgust for family and friends. Why not go up to your momma, slap her face good, and then spit in her face, and tell her how much of a worthless c* she is. Come on, why not? And your dad, man, what a worthless bastard, right? Such a failure, right? Hell, BOTH of your parents are failures, right?

Now you hate me. Now you want to kick my ass. Well, before you do go look in the mirror. And you'll be looking at the true culprit right there. Yourself. Because when you kill yourself that is EXACTLY what your parents will be thinking. Instead of thinking that your just some stupid jackass that hates his parents and shows it by calling them names and spitting on them, they'll be thinking about how much total failures they must have been, that their son whom they love is willing to take his own life and not come to them to ask for help. And even if you don't like them or trust them, you're still the loser because for them the day begins anew the next day and the day after that. you, you'll be dead. You have no tomorrow. There is no next day for you. A year from now they'll be swimming in Cancun or Hawaii. And you, you'll have maggots crawling in your eyes ears nose and mouth. You'll have rot set in, and well, you're dead! No more swimming and partying for you. No more getting a girl and fucking her brains out. You'll be dead and dead people don't do that shit. You'll just lay there in a box buried in a deep hole and rot rot rot. And that jot babe you want, she won't care. You're gone and now that nerd down the street has a chance to get some poontang.

Do you see the message I'm giving you? If you kill yourself, you're the loser. You can't fix what's wrong, you're dead, you just lost the game.

Right now you're alive. You have a world full of opportunities before you. Grow a pair of nuts and grab those opportunities and make something of them. You can do it, you know you can do it, and no one but yourself can make that decision. Just you.

And that's something you can't do if you kill yourself. You'll be dead and no changing that.

So there. Now the ball's in your court.

 

Hey. Saw this thread late but was just wondering how you are doing if you happen to check this again...?

Not having friends is a really dumb reason to think about killing yourself, imho. And I don't say that to be condescending.

I mean, take me. I realized in the past cpl years that all but two of my (real life) friends are fake friends. Either just drug friends or ppl I'd party with and chill with... or they were guys I'd party with that I thought were really my friends but when it all came down to it and I changed (in a good way)...hahaha... point is... I don't even really WANT a lot of friends. People are lucky if they even have ONE good, TRUE friend.

Do you have family or people who love you that aren't friends? Because for me I have those two friends and I have my husband and my son and my mom and brother and their kids and well...that's enough for me. I wouldn't mind having more friends if I found people who I could really connect with-have conversations with that weren't just superficial and pointless or...idk... I thought I had a certain "best friend" (since I was 17 yrs old)... so, I'm 32 now and a cpl months ago I realized that HE was really just waiting too and not really even my friend anymore and I lost him... but that was a good thing. I guess.

My point is, I have myself and a cpl ppl I am close to and I don't feel the need to have anything more. I don't get bored or lonely at all.
Anyways, if you wanna talk on here tho you can message me and things do get better and superficial friends ARE over-rated.
Take care!!

 

With suicide you will just wake up in yet another life with issues of it's own. As long as you take pleasure or displeasure in anything you are stuck in samsara (cycle of birth and death). Be an observer, you are merely looking after this body until it returns to the earth from which it came. Any circumstance is happing to the body which "you" are not so enjoy the movie however dramatic it becomes. The only way out is to realize what is actually going on this fertile rock, circling a star in a random galaxy, encapsulated in an infinite universe.

 

there are always more interesting things going on somewhere then emotional drama. i totally agree and find it harder to understand how people get so attached to their emotions as to want to kill themselves.

 

how is that a reason? life goes on. friends come and go. the happiest times in my own life have often been when i have been utterly and completely alone.

emotional attachment to need for companionship is partially a cultural thing, on one that is exagerated by culture. belive me, as long as you use good sense and self restraint to avoid making enimies, you can get along just fine without company.

i guess it depends on the individual. also how do you define these friends you don't have.

i can tell you something else, just because it is possible, even likely, that no belief really knows what it is talking about, doesn't mean what we see is all there is to get.

 

Im doing fine, and i'm embarrassed for making this thread. Thanks everyone for replying and remember, theres always brighter days ahead!

 

No Need To Be Embarrassed My Friend, We All Have Our Dark Days And

Posting Yours On Here Was A Good Thing, Friends Are Friends Even If

They Only Communicate Through A LCD Screen...



Cheers Glen.

 

Seriously bud, don't do it.

Hard to believe, but things will get better. If need somebody to talk to, send me a PM. It might make things easier.

 

"Everyone else" is pretty general. What happens if "everyone else" in a crowd is insane, or doing something you find unacceptable for some reason? Eventually, the attitude of "do as the Romans do" gets pretty lonely too. At first, you don't think so, but after awhile you find there's really no room for you as you, because you've made yourself just an interchangeable part.

Besides, a real friend is someone who will accept you as you are, not someone who will "accept" (with fake acceptance) you only as long as you're behaving as "everyone else" does (whatever that means). If you want friendship--meaning real friendship--and you're honest with yourself and with others, you will eventually find it. If you want fake friends, sure it's much "easier," or at least it seems so, but in the end people like that couldn't give two cows about you.

As someone who went through the "Life sucks, I don't fit anywhere and I want to just die and get it over with" thing myself, I really recommend sticking it out and finding people you really relate to. It is not always easy, but in the long run that is where I found strength.

 

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