Hey I just need someone to talk to really or advice if you could give it...But I think I might be bisexual or gay. I am female and ive had relationships with guys and ive had sex but the idea of sex with a guy is so awkward, I mean i enjoy being pleasured but its so awkward when its a guy and I just dont feel like me. If guys like me or come up to me in clubs i kiss them but if they want more i shut them down because i just dont feel comfortable at all and i feel violated and unsure ...thats not to say i dont find guys attractive There are some i find cute and i do connect on an emotional level with them just not a physical one. Ive never had sex with a girl but i have kissed hugged etc and i feel much more comfortable about that, it feels safe and warm I do find some of them very attractive and would like to imagine physical things and I would love to try sex with a femail and to have a physical relationship with a girl but emotionally i cant connect with girls becuase i went to an all girls school and that was really hell as i got bullied as a result hence most my friends are male and i bond easier with males...and i have no idea how i could even find a girl that would think the same way most forums ive been on about lesbians is all like pft bisexuals are faking it but i really am so confused like I love guys company but i just cant bring myself to enjoy sexual encounters with them yet i do feel an deep emotional connection I do think im bisexual to some extent but im just unsure.This is something that creeps into my head alot Any advice or opinions would be welcome
It's okay to be confused about your sexuality, lots of people go through what you're going through. It's possible you just haven't found a guy/girl that you're compatible with both physically and mentally. You don't have to label yourself straight/gay/bisexual right now. Keep meeting new people, if you find a girl that you connect with on an emotional level with don't be afraid to sleep with her if it gets to that point. Experimenting can be good! If it doesn't feel right then atleast you know. And if you need someone to talk to don't even hesitate to ask.
I experienced most of what you are telling myself. I felt in love with men during have of my life but sex was not satisfactory for me. I always got on better with men than women because i couldn´t follow the " "horde policies" that rule most of the girls gangs i´ve met, that (and the fact that i´m cosidered to be a beautiful woman) cause me trouble cause i was a "thread"to them. I finally dated a woman for the first time to find she impersonated the horrible stereotype of "manipulating personality" related to the female genre. What i discovered though was that i was attracted to women but didn´t like that king of persona by my side, the reason i hadn´t got many female friends but males. In a romantic relationship women behave differently than in a friend relationship and i have to say i prefer them to men now. i felt more confortable and open minded when having sex with a woman and, as years went by, i got to the conclusion that that was so because men are somehow in a dominating level and i had not the knowledge to tell them what i wanted and how i wanted it. Nowadays I think sex with a man would be so much better than before because having sex with women taught me what gives me pleasure and gave me confidence to ask for it. It was not about them, it was about me: i had fears and prejudges created by this sexist world and felt at a disadvantage. Thank added to what other my friends told about their satisfactory sexual relationship, made me think i had a sex disorder. let me tell you one thing: years after, when we talked about our ex boyfriends , they told about who was the one they had an orgasm with and most of them admitted that it had take long till they felt pleasure with a man for the first time. That is to say: your friends lie about it. women are not sexually pleasure through penetration often and that´s what man focus on most of the time. You feel violated because you notice they are not thinking about you but jump to what they want without asking for it. Women though take time to touch and explore and getting to orgasm is not important. You can experience with a woman without the urge to have sex. and, if you are as alike to me as i think, you´ll find women are more easily loved than befriend. Anyway talk to me whatever you need, I´ll tell you my expearinces and hear your questions. QUOTE=shadows1301;7606593]Hey I just need someone to talk to really or advice if you could give it...But I think I might be bisexual or gay. I am female and ive had relationships with guys and ive had sex but the idea of sex with a guy is so awkward, I mean i enjoy being pleasured but its so awkward when its a guy and I just dont feel like me. If guys like me or come up to me in clubs i kiss them but if they want more i shut them down because i just dont feel comfortable at all and i feel violated and unsure ...thats not to say i dont find guys attractive There are some i find cute and i do connect on an emotional level with them just not a physical one. Ive never had sex with a girl but i have kissed hugged etc and i feel much more comfortable about that, it feels safe and warm I do find some of them very attractive and would like to imagine physical things and I would love to try sex with a femail and to have a physical relationship with a girl but emotionally i cant connect with girls becuase i went to an all girls school and that was really hell as i got bullied as a result hence most my friends are male and i bond easier with males...and i have no idea how i could even find a girl that would think the same way most forums ive been on about lesbians is all like pft bisexuals are faking it but i really am so confused like I love guys company but i just cant bring myself to enjoy sexual encounters with them yet i do feel an deep emotional connection I do think im bisexual to some extent but im just unsure.This is something that creeps into my head alot Any advice or opinions would be welcome[/QUOTE]
