"Diamonds" is brilliant. *Wish I wrote that* moment for me! Factotum is a good read, "Baby...I'm a genius but nobody knows it but me."
The pain comes and goes in waves. Comes and goes in waves: comes and goes in waves. Sometimes gently lapping at the shore of my discontent. Sometimes raging tsunamis attack and obliterate my consciousness. Sometimes how to be numb sometimes? How to be numb, grasping for nothing, striving for the intense moment to moment experience, engulfed in quiddity, in the defiance of analysis, which is, after all, (after all) all that reality is made of; sweet god, dirty devil, butt-fucking ecstatic nightmare, how can there be no exit from this, this, this... thing?
