Why Did You Get Together?

What I was getting at was...what was your thought process around the time of choosing to be with someone. Not really what kinds of characteristics did they have. But thanks to you all for answering.

 

Hmm, thought process..... I don't really consciously analyze something like that, but I know there was some initial reluctance on my part when it came to making the decision to date the third and the fourth girlfriends. It's a long story, though.

 

Yeah...I have always been reluctant, and thought a lot about it when it came to real, long-term type stuff, after a certain age. But even in the beginning, I think I was always reluctant even though I maybe just brushed it off and stopped thinking about it. I guess I thought that was normal, but I always thought it would be nice to know for sure and feel 100% about it. I could say the only time I would've been 100% didn't work out due to timing and that was Guy#2.

 

Well, one can feel 100% about a relationship one is pursuing, and can still find that relationship doesn't work out in the end. I think it's just something you have to actually go through in order to be completely sure.

In my case, the age difference aspect made me a bit reluctant with the girlfriend #3(my first online girlfriend). As for the fourth girl, it was more due to some superstitious reasons than anything else. Like, I'm talking supernatural, lol. xD The odd thing is that the age thing no longer worries me because, despite the fact that our age gap is the biggest out of all the gaps I've experienced so far, my current girlfriend and I were simply drawn to each other in the most natural sense and ended up where we are now. It's like, one day we looked around and said, "oh hey, we're here", lol.

 

Yeah. I mean rather it works out in the end isn't the most important thing, but I guess I just feel like I've been going about these things for the wrong reasons and not making good decisions. Like I said, most of the guys I've really been into I have rejected. Why? And several of those guys up there I was either not into or barely into, so why did I keep going with it...and then I find that I've only had a chance to "pursue" a couple of guys in my life. I'm just trying to learn as much as I can about my patterns so I don't make another bad decision. I guess they weren't really bad decisions but some of them are certainly embarrassing.

 

BF #1 (the only boyfriend I've ever had):
Hes intelligent (genius standard but he doesn't show it), cute, caring, silly, funny, sexy as hell, amazing in bed, fair, he doesn't play games and he's himself all the time.