I fell in love with a girl and she is breaking my heart.

I'm a fool.
I dont know about the other ppl here but for me If I fall Im GONE. Head buzzin constantly, blinded by emotion. pupills dilated. (No, not high. )

I fell in love. deeply. far gone.
She was just messing with me. "

The only reason she was interested in me is to show off... because her girlfriend is the girl I mentioned in another thread. The girl I was afraid I might be hurtin. ( I wasnt ) I guess I get back what I gave away.

Nothing is lost. Energy is released and reflected. Social interaction is like ripples on water. You drop the stone in the well and it sends ripples through the space. Same rules apply for people and emotions.

I hope the feeling I have felt and still feel is not wasted. I could not share it... and It feels like the love that is inside me is crystallizing on my soul. Making it hard as a rock till it falls on the floor from all the weight and shatters into a billion pieces....and the wind blows it away.

I'm doing alright. not doing anything stupid.. but this shit happens to me all the time. All the time. My brain is probably wired differently than the others because pure love is the only feeling I can feel. And I fall instantly.which always leads to a feeling that contrasts love.
Pure Hell.

Peace and love for everyone who can handle it.
I have enough of it... go on and take some.

 

next time you are falling for a girl..take a step back.

instead of showering her with love, focus on demonstrating your value to her. those two different 'reasons' could result in you doing the same thing, like buying flowers as a stupid example. but if you focus more on showing her your good points, you might not come on too strong.

i dunno, just some advice for next time. i've been there with a girl before, it really sucks. she told me she wasn't ready for a relationship and like two weeks later she was dating some guy who just seemed like he was two steps below me.

things will turn around.

 

hey thats good advice pork.

I also believe that if its not happening with this person or right now, its because better things are to come. You may have a lesson to learn from this. You may have a more beautiful soul to meet on your journey. Thats my experience.

 

Thank you for the advice!

but it happened again today. first sight.

felt like the crystal shards around my heart opened up like flowers!
and then melted inside my chest and and I felt glowing warm energy spread throughout my body. (me: completely sober,)

I got out of there, quick. I have to be more careful.

love is a powerful feeling. something that must be used wisely.

I think I can learn to I can control it.

I can fall in love and out of love consciously.

And If I can apply this to other feelings then maybe I can finally end sadness, and anger, and hate and all the negative emotions.

and leave my body feeling nothing and everything at the end. Thats one step towards Nirvana!


Peace!!

 

This touched me, as i also feel that i must love too much. That for whatever purpose i've been seared and carved to love from my petty guts to the tip of my brow and all these bleating language

I understand honesty is fine and dandy but how honest is it to act in a way that repels those who bypass our crags and pierce the heart?

In my life I used the maxium , if I like her do nothing more than normal
If i'm head over heels, shallow breath slippery steps maybe after sleeping how our conversation goes invite out to something Im already doing (farm market cool afterwards)
After positive Hanging out, i find my self dreaming off this house IVe never seven of us together naming rabbits that we sit side by side decade by decade till death do us part
I don't say nothing. Hold her hand with all that passion, glance her eye with all that joy, build your life with all your passion.

I fear/feel like puking up all my divinty when i say "i love you" actions lounder than words , hé writes

Good luck lover man
So many fish in the sea
, love always in flux
, hold on softly never let go
Love that point on the graph wear for a minutes or years people aganist all probability move as one , move as one through self love through love .

 

When I love ...I give all and it may just be too much....LOL!

Good luck to you!