These Are My Symptoms Of My Schizoaffective Bipolar Disorder.

I don't do drugs. I don't even drink. All I do is caffeine.

Been there, done that.

 

Look into herbal remedies before you try the hard core poisons.

 

Are there herbal remedies for my conditions? What are they? Or where do I find them?

 

Ever hear of Google?

http://www.drtarapeyman.com/schizophrenia
http://www.livestrong.com/article/542891-herbal-remedies-for-schizoaffective-disorder/
http://www.nativeremedies.com/products/moodcalm-relieves-mood-swings.html?gclid=CKXs2Y2ThMICFUeEfgod3EwASg
http://www.everydayhealth.com/health-questions/bipolar-disorder/are-there-any-natural-or-homeopathic-remedies-that-can-help-with
http://www.fountainheadclinic.com/schizoaffective.htm

 

I hear that all the time. Not only on this forum, but on other ones. I rely on Internet forums to get information that I could find myself. I should stop that.

 

Well, I Googled it for ya, so now you have links to refer to an research. No excuse not to, and nothing stoppin' ya but you.

 

you mean, like asking a question so that someone else can google it for you? i google stuff sometimes to help answer a question somone has, because for some things people may not know enough about it yet to actually know exactly what to google. that's fine, i suggest you keep asking questions, it helps learning.

i also suggest that you google your own questions, at that point you may then be able to ask a much more specific question, and possibly get more specific answers to what you want to know.

 

Yes, I should change my thought process to think:

1. Google.
2. Internet forums

rather than the other way around. I would probably make less threads.

 

It's not a matter of less threads, but posting stuff that those of us that care about will help you if we can. But there are people out there that enjoy making the innocent & disadvantaged such as yourself into victims.

 

I'm not disadvantaged or innocent. If anything, it's the other way around. I am highly functional.

I'm also a narcissistic a**h*** in case you haven't been keeping track. But I am working on that and I would say my posts have gotten substantially better, would you agree?

Kind of like that "Beautiful Mind" guy except I'm cooler than him and I hate movies anyway.

 

Yes that sounds like mild schizophrenia. I used to have those same problems minus the actual pictures judging me: arguing with figments, feeling persecuted, feeling judged all day by some "presence", the delusions of grandeur that I was some amazing genius, the paranoia that some jealous person would ruin my life... I had guilt because I have been with two married men (they were both separated and the wives were in the dark and were abusive but it's still wrong...I guess...). So one of the figments tried to make me cry to atone for my wrongdoing. She was a maternal figure, overbearing and didn't care that guys do it all the time.

I'm in an online support group. PM me for the link. They don't care in the least about what I just said. They're very nonjudgemental. I recommend joining it.

Spirituality changed my life! I agree that religion is for people who don't want to go to hell and spirituality is for people who have already been there.

 

Read the Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle and A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle for starters.

 

Actually, that sounds like anxiety and ocd. Google "Pure O".

And forget therapists. The whole mental health industry is a sham. Therapists are quacks.

It's a spiritual issue.

 

I have found counseling to be effective.

 

I have been having some issues recently and well actually, I've had them for years but we only recognise them now..

I went to a doctor the other day and through checklist diagnosis, which I assume isn't accurate, I scored as high risk depression and bi-polar. Nothing too serious yet, just dramatic mood swings through the mania/depression stages, I have all the symptoms and signs apparently. We always knew, my girl and I.. and pretty much everyone I know personally.. that I wasn't always with it like most people mental wise, not in a bad bad way but I'm just different.. we always joked about it though, like you know I'm a crazy psycho, or if I became angry "watch out she's in berserker mode" lol, but it all sank in with this visit from the doctor, put it in perspective.. okay.. maybe there is something here for us to deal with now.
It was all positive though, I realise and understand there's nothing I've done wrong or anything and my levels aren't massively serious, I'm just a moody **** to be around, no signs of psychosis.. yet...

So I have a follow up in a couple of weeks. Right now we are just monitoring my moods, seeing if there's anything that triggers my downward spirals.

I don't really want the meds or the therapists, I know many people will say I should but just personally, I don't want meds to block out my emotional feelings. If I'm angry, i should be angry and if I am sad then let me be sad. When I'm happy I'm happy.. depressed, depressed. These are all human emotions that make us what we are. Sure some of them are detrimental to enjoying a healthy life, but I don't want to suppress them.. I just want to be who I am.

My sisters have also gone through depression stages but nothing but, it's all fixable outcome quite quickly but one of them is head fucked from therapy. They just put ideas in her head, like it my parents fault for everything wrong with us. I've never heard so much bullshit in my life tbh.

I understand and can see the benefits of talking to people, even the kind souls on this site that offer their time to get to know me are really genuine and helpful, just typing and chatting does me a lot of good. I can easily see myself as Tony Soprano at therapy. I won't want to there, I will only start waving arms and going off lol. But I do think maybe I should see somebody one day, maybe just blurt out a whole bunch of stuff and see where the conversation leads. I'm just interested in having someone manipulate me into telling them what they want to hear.

 

Is hypersexuality a symptom of your mania?

 

Most definitely and also my creation levels peak through the roof, like earlier this week I just found myself shaping and polishing a stone for no reason.. then went out at midnight to erect it in line with the moon just so I can come back in a year and see if it is still aligned with moon. Shit like that I do all the time. I write poetry, novels.. well I try, but when my mood shifts to the downside I scrap most of my projects pretty quickly. I have like 20 chapter ones on my PC, that's 20 completely different ideas that don't come together.

Hyper-sexuality.. I can masturbate for up to 6 hours pretty much straight and I am not satisfied one bit and every sensation is hightened during this Another reason I don't want the meds, I'm proud of my sexual nature, nothing shameful for me, but I don't want that sexuality to decline because of side effects of pills.

 

That is the only reason I don't take "Risperdal" is because of the erectile dysfunction.

Do you ever babble to yourself like "bla ba blab bbal bb a babla" at a million miles per hour?

 

I talk to myself all the time, like you said in your original post, you know people aren't there but you'll still talk to them. Was that your post? Totally relatable to me. I am mostly always my own best company and I make up characters all the time, I always talk to myself, sometimes it's a game, I believe I'm being filmed and I'll make dinner literally like I'm hosting a TV show, I tell no one exactly what I'm doing. I also have a stuffed animal collection where I've given each animal unique characteristics. They are all very different character wise, they all have their own way of speaking to me etc. I've posted a thread about it before, most people thought I was a bit loopy, maybe there's something behind that.

 

That's cool.

Have you ever been considered to be schizophrenic at all?