Last Time You Cried?

Last time I cried was at my Grandfather's funeral. And one of my best friend's funerals before that.

 

I used to put on sad music and have a good weep every once in a while when I felt like it. I cant really do that anymore, I guess my hormones have balanced out or something. Now i only cry out of frustration oor when something bad/sad happens.

I cant remember when I last cried, probably a few months ago and probably out of frustration

 

A cat of mine was going through a loveless period. I confronted by taking him to my bed. He gave it up. I cried.

 

On my birthday a few days ago, as usual.

 

Last night. I watched a movie called 50/50. I knew it was probably going to be a tear-jerker, so I was ready for it. I know all the tricks when it comes to not bursting into tears when the emotion is just too overwhelming. For instance, I remind myself that it's just a movie, and I imagine the cameras shooting the scene, and the director behind those cameras. And then there's the "looking at the empty space beside the television" trick, and keeping my eyes wide open so that any tears that come will dry up fast; airconditioning really helps with this. But none of that helped last night. Heaving sobs eventually won out.

It's a really good movie. But it really accentuated the vulnerability and, for me at least, the hopelessness of this existence. I usually avoid tear-jerkers because I'm not sure it's such a good thing to have my hormones fluctuated to such a degree.

There was one Sunday night when I was listening to old tunes, and one caused me to break down and cry. It was done by a group called The Marmalade. The song is called Reflections of My Life. The lead singer looks like my late brother.

https://www.bing.com/search?q=reflections+the+marmalade&filters=ufn%3a%22marmalade+reflections+of+my+life%22+sid%3a%221a01831d-4e4d-042f-3644-ea6b0f3df4de%22&form=EDGEAR&qs=MB&cvid=6d27ba6bc49a4fb492554337a434feff&pq=reflections%20the%20marmalade

Another thing is that pic of TW's dog. What a soulful and honest . . . being.

And when I came back here once and saw that thedope had been banned. I didn't cry, but it was a loss that maybe called for it. He wouldn't approve of the sentiment, I'm sure. God I wish he were so I could disagree with him and go after his ass with great gusto just one more time.

 

When I got terminated from a competitive job I spent over a year proving myself to acquire. That was about a year ago, and I haven't been able to recover all the way ever since. I met the guy who replaced me in that job, he introduced himself and offered a handshake. I wanted to punch him in the face, but instead I said, "That's OK, I know who you are." and walked away. I'm a very jealous person by the way; it's one of my character flaws. I don't get along with any of my ex-girlfriend's new boyfriends either.

 

The movie Source Code gets me everytime, of all things

No other movies will, except The Notebook




Outside that nothing else will make me cry, I'm a robot

 

The other day when I made the appointment to have my dog put down. That's happening this Friday. It will be a sad day.

 

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I feel so sad reading this.....Ruby... The first conversation we had on this forum was about our pugs, so i am assuming it is your darling, sweet pug.....? i remember the photos you shared of your pug here, and feel like I know your pug, too...i am so sorry and sad, Ruby. My heart goes out to you and your little fur baby.....sending hugs and love.

 

Thank you. Yes it is my pug. He just turned 13. His quality of life isnt good so its time.