You don't sound like a rubbish person when you write here. You sound like a likable person. Maybe the people that walk away from you are rubbish people. None of us are perfect. I'm willing to be that a large percentage of people at Hip Forums would walk away from doctors with some kind of diagnosis. It's how we interact with each other that is challenging. I don't consider anyone to be rubbish. People diagnosed as psychopaths would be the most challenging but even they have redeeming qualities. When people in your life have made you feel bad, please always come here where you are cared about. There are many people here that do care about you.
Everybody is a nuissance at times. Why should you be gone because you're messed up? Do you feel like going because everybody is ignoring you or does everybody ignore you eventually because they are repeatedly confronted with (what sounds as) a deathwish (often very damaging to a relationship?
Come on, Tipsy... Don't be afraid of painful situations with others, or with yourself. Be brave. Face pain head on. So what, you feel like you've messed up and people look down on you. Walk through that crap just like someone walking across a bed of hot coals. Push through the fear and pain even though you don't think you can. Be strong. Find out what the feeling of accomplishment is by overcoming your self loathing. Face it, Tipsy. Work through it. Things don't have to stay this way forever. You have the power to change your life into something positive, one baby step at at time. I believe you've got that much courage.
Even if the therapy you are getting is good, and the meds are good, it will take consistent, sustained effort before you will see positive results. I think you have to be on most psych meds for at least a few weeks before you can tell if they are helping or not. Therapy can take even longer. I don't know if your old doctor/meds/therapy were bad or not. They might have been, in which case a change was needed. In any case, a change in doctor/meds/therapy is better than no doctor/meds/therapy at all. Whatever mode of treatment that you try, positive results will almost certainly not be instantaneous. If you take the meds consistently, in a few weeks, they should produce positive results. If they don't, then a change in meds may be in order. Your doctor should be able to tell you what kind of results to expect, and how long you will have to take the medication to get them. Along the way, your medication may have to be changed, or the dosage adjusted. It's important to keep your doctor up-to-date about changes, or lack of change you experience. Therapy can take a long time to work. You may need to change your therapist, but no matter who you see, it's going to take time and effort to see positive results. No. The diagnosis shows that you have real problems that will take time and effort to solve. The fact that you realize you have a problem and have been willing to reach out for help is a huge breakthrough for you. You're light years ahead of where you were before. It's the foundation for any future progress that you make. You've already achieved 99% of what it takes to get better. It's still going to take time and effort to get better. The meds will be relatively easy, just staying consistent with taking them, monitoring their effects, and going to follow-up appointments. Therapy will probably be a lot harder. Along the way, there may be other modes of treatment that you can add, or you may develop a better understanding of yourself that helps you to better manage your condition. If you remain consistent about and committed to treatment, you'll almost certainly make positive changes. If you don't, you almost certainly won't.
Didn't you say something once about having a dream about fairies tapping on your eyelids and reprogramming you, and when you woke up you felt so much better? Maybe it's like that.
^ Couldn't have said it better. Which is also the reason I often don't say anything I just wanna say something that helps or something good but only come up with things that probably sounds repetitive and like another meaningless cliché to you... It may count for others as well. They're not fed up with you, just clueless how to react to your very honest but blunt and confronting remarks about how you feel. I dunno of course (except about myself), just thinking.
Tipsy, I hope that you can get back to where you were when you made the first post. Not always easy to not give up and all but something you were doing then was a benefit to you as you were coping better. Might be a good time to reflect on what was helping you and try it again.
You don't seem to be malicious in general, so I didn't take your post that way. When someone posts about how difficult life is for them though, it's probably not the best time to tell them about how awesome your life is in contrast.
That was totally not my intention indeed (besides: it's not that awesome... I guess i just have more of a Snoopy mentality. And yeah i acknowledge thats not always a choice). It was more an expression of hopelessness I guess. Frustration maybe. Babaa may say it for completely different reasons than TipsyGypsy, they could have completely different mindsets. He seems much happier about his life than OP. So yeah... that caused me to release a nah
I remember you. Gosh, it's been so long. But, I remember you talking about your struggles. I forgot to look at the date of this thread. However, if it was made recently I'm glad to hear you're doing better. If it was made not so recently I hope you're still doing better. Maybe even better than better.
So, I read the whole thread after posting. Sorry. I wanted to ask what did the doctors diagnose you with? If you don't mind sharing. If so, sorry for asking.
I asked my psychiatrist to change my diagnosis, but he refused. I know he's right, but it sucks. Sooo... mood is better. Self harm is still bad, mainly due to anxiety. I do get slightly paranoid. But I think generally I am doing a bit better. Just need to remember to use the skills learnt in therapy I guess.
