first, it's been 2 month now that the story goes on...kinda long, but first I needed time and then she needed time, and now I really dont know where I am. ok, so I decided last day to write an email to explain things to her. she knows that I'm more a writer than a speaker. I know she received it, but she says she didnt. I think she wants me to tell her those things face-to-face. But huh!!! it's so hard. I mean, what if it was just a big joke for the last two month. I dont want to loose her friendship, but I dont think I can accept to just be a friend anymore. and then yesterday I act kinda bad with her, telling her that if she dont want anything then that she just stop calling me and shit. everytime I ask her to do something she cant, or always have a good reason not to come. but after I told her that she called me in the evening but I couldn't talk long, so I just told her to call another day. I really dont know what to do know, I know it's kinda hard to explain and asking strangers is not the kinda thing I do the best..... anyways... see ya
well, actually I didnt write about my feelings for her, it was more like, a "wtf is happening now" letter :S
I don't think I could ever be with someone who needed time-that's another way of saying I just need to think about whether or not I love you enough. I said it a past relationship and I should have broken things off then. Needed time is stringing people along-which is like the most fucked up theing ever-to me it's a deal breaker and I would never do it to anyone I truley loved. I bet you this is where her issues lay.
