Lucifer Sam's Lonely Hearts Club Thread

lol its not easy *STARS* IM NOT GOING TO GIVE YOU ADVICE ,because i felt the same and know the feeling ,if somone was good to me i tought the wanted something from me ,but somthing hapned , i changed ,my life is ok today ,life is difrent ,its not the god stuff , or born agin , its gust me , today i could not swop 5 mins of my life for aney body, i wish you well ,peace and LOL,

 

They've only gotten darker...

 

Something in the way she moves
Attracts me like no other lover
Something in the way she woos me
I don't want to leave her now
You know I believe her now
Somewhere in her smile she knows
That I don't need no other lover
Something in her style that shows me
Don't want to leave her now
You know I believe her now
You're asking me will my love grow
I don't know, I don't know
You stick around now it may show
I don't know, I don't know
Something in the way she knows
And all I have to do is think of her
Something in the things she shows me
Don't want to leave her now
You know I believe her now

I've had this song on repeat for an hour now (Bob Dylan's cover of it...)

 

Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooo..........

That's not a smile.

 

That song is so kickass.
Bob Dylan is so kickass.

 

Yes... Dylan is kickass.

Not that I'm a fan or anything...

 

Hey wow! I belong here!

My sob story is as follows. Two years ago, I became friends with a lovely boy named Doug. I began to like him around then, too. I never put much thought into it because our religious beliefs clashed far too much. He graduated and moved an hour away and got engaged to a girl who tore him apart. He realized she was ruining his life, so he ended it.

About 5 months after he had ended it, I admitted to him that I had feelings for him. Over the two year period, his beliefs had changed to a system quite similar to my own. He didn't really respond or give me much of a chance and we didn't talk much after that (not that we really talked much to begin with).

Over Christmas break this past December, he and I started talking out of the blue and decided we wanted to make out. So, he came to town and we went out and ended up kissing about 3 times and found we had amazing chemistry. We started talking about dating and he decided he was ready to "get it right," so on Christmas Eve, he picked me up at my house and took me to the park and asked me to be his girlfriend. One week later, he and I spent New Years Eve together at a friend's house, then before I had to be home at 2 a.m., he took me out to the lake and parked on a cliff and put in a CD his friend had recorded with a song his friend had written for his girlfriend (shortly before they died in a car accident, it's really a beautiful story, but far too long to post). He played the song for me and said it was exactly how he felt about me. Then, the refrain said, "I love you," and he looked in my eyes and I knew what was about to happen. He kissed me a couple times, then looked out the window, said, "Here we go," took a deep breath, turned back to me, and with the most heart melting smile in the entire world, said, "I love you." We ended up yelling, "We're in love!" from the cliff. Two weeks later, we made love for the first time. He was always saying how happy he was, he was always telling me he loved me.

Then, one day out of the blue, he e-mailed me and told me he wasn't ready for a serious relationship and that it scared him. So, that was it. It broke my heart, it still breaks my heart. I loved him with all my heart and I can't believe for a second he wasn't in love with me. I'm very good at reading people's eyes and love is unmistakenable. Even his best friend's girlfriend looked at him one day and said, "You're in love, aren't you?" So, I'm in a complete mental turmoil because I have no idea what happened and what is going on.

I kind of hope to meet someone else, to get my mind off of him. It's sad because I would give the world to have that joy again. But I hope I'll find it in someone else, because I don't know that I'll ever get that back again. I more or less just hate being lonely.

So yes. Sorry to bore you guys to death with the tragic tale of my lost love. But that is the reason I come to you, single and pathetic, haha.

 

How do you know it was him who sent the email. It could be someone that got into his account and decided to screw up his life. Have you talked to him? He could have split personalities or some similar medical disorder or a secret double life. If you have talked to him ,and he told you this in person, and your sure hes not mental I would just give him time.If not... best of luck to you in finding love. I know how shitty it is to be alone but itll get better.. Hope I helped.

 

Well, I called him to talk to him about it...left two messages, got no reply. So I e-mailed him and we e-mailed a few times back and forth. He also quit his job the day after the break up. I think there's something deeper going on but I can't bring myself to call him yet. In due time things will work themselves out. If I can think of the right words to say, eventually I might call. But I don't know.

 

I'm sorry, Derek....but I must take a leave of absense from your club....it seems I don't really belong here anymore But, if you want, I'll still check in from time to time!

 

do tell

 

Yeah, fill us in, man.

 

Read my thread in this forum...

But yea, I'm not single anymore guys. Thanks for all the advice you've all given me, it helped me out alot. I'm just sorry I have to leave you....well, not really...

 

Congratulations...

 

*Lucky(Napolean Dynamite)

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*depressed sigh*

 

*sigh* there aren't enough single artsy breeder boys around. . .

 

Breeder boys?

 

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Please fill us in on this... im really curious.

 

I hear ya, sista.