Hello my follow up to my introduction, I am a 20 year old guy from England that lives with his mum , now ever since I was a kid mum used spanking on me I don’t know why but I seem to enjoy it and I thought long and hard about what I wanted to do next , I brought some spanking mags but I left one out in my bedroom to be found sure enough mum found it and questioned me about it and now I get put over mums knee 3-4 times a week it’s very embarrassing but I love it at the same time ,mum seems to enjoy it too I doubt there are many guys my age still go over mummy’s knee ,good job my friends don’t know I’d never live it down
I was spanked by my mother until I moved out of the house at age 21. At the time I hated it. I was so ashamed that an adult like myself was still getting spanked by mommy. It was eating me up inside. I finally moved and thought I would be happy. I was wrong. To my surprise I am homesick. It's not just the spankings I miss. I think I would still hate them because they were too long and painful. My mother is an alcoholic and would spank me after drinking too much wine. I think the alcohol takes away her inhibitions and she goes overboard with the spanking. What I miss is the structure of living with a strict and controlling mother. All of this freedom leaves me empty and lonely. I now realize how much I need my mother to give me orders, tell me what I can and can not do, place restrictions on me such as a curfew etc. I need her harsh lectures. While I didn't enjoy her spankings, I miss that butterflies in the stomach feeling that if I slip up and am not on my best behavior it could escalate into a spanking. I need that whole structure in my life. I need someone to I ey. I am thinking of moving back home and if I do I plan on staying for awhile as I have now seen life on the other side and it's not as good as I thought it was.
I wanted to add something. Since I have spent the last several months romanticizing living with my mother I wonder what it will be like if/when I move back in with her. I'm pretty sure all the resentment I had previously will be gone. I am curious if I will get the tingles when all the old familiar patterns reemerge. How am I going to feel when she spanks me again? Will I maybe enjoy it or at least think OK this is the position I need to be in? For the record I'm very small, just over 100 pounds. My mom is not overweight but she could definitely overpower me not that I would resist, that would seem too disrespectful.
