isn't time a strange thing? you feel like sucha big event has happened and for a while afterwards you sit and reminise about it, try to get your mind around it, and then its time to go again. im moving out of halls today, into a massive flat converted b&b on the other side of town. its scary, i remember a year ago saying goodbye to glen, to my friends, my furry friends too.....being so scared and nervous about halls and the people in my flat. and now? well now i am sitting in an empty room again with what behind me? a year full of relationships that never quite worked out, a band that did and a presidency of a society. and my flat mates? well we get on great now but none of them were around last night so i sat here, in my empty room and i cried. i cried for everyone, for the fact imleaving, for what im running to in front of me, in terror and in love, in aprehension and excitement. and i cried. waking up this morning to the birds singing i know that it matters not where we are physically, its in outselves that matters, in the here, in the now. nothing can touch me. and i have expectiations-doesn't everyone? and thats ok, just as long as i don't let them get the better of me i shall be fine. good even. great. just random thoughts to how i am feeling this morning waiting for my parents to move all the material possesions seen as my own. won't have 24hr internet anymore after today so not sure how much ill be on......but ill still be here. and those who write to me-sunny, dais*hugs*, kelso and anyone else my address for uni has changed in case you write to the wrong one..... muchly love and happiness to everyone today. namaste x x x
*huggles you hard* Awww babe im glad you see the light. Time is but a series of moments and you live each moment with recolection of the last and aprehention of the next but enjoyment of all tis the best way. May i write to you? if so.. PM me your address im starting uni at the end of this year too so it will be nice to have someone to write to
Wow, you just said pretty much everything i've been thinking! I too have been in the exact same position a few days ago! I cried a few times, about what, i'm not entirely sure?! I'm going to miss a lot of people who aren't going to be in my life (AS MUCH!!!) next year and the year after at uni! Empty rooms (or ones packed up filled with boxes of.....well material posessions-and that i have far too many!!!) is but a wierd one! Empty flats are stranger too! The main thing i've realised from my first year at uni is how to love everyone, and so many people have helped teach me this! I fall in love with everyone i meet that totally and uttery inspires me to do anything, like smile! I also realised that there is no such thing as a 'goodbye' as long as your in the same world as someone! If you wanna see someone, you go to see them! Goodbye is a term for, 'I won't see you for a LITTLE while'! You need to write back to me my little gnome, I wanna see some words and stories of yours Hope all is going well and i send lots of love to you! x x x x x
oh man...ditto..thats spot on for me aswell babe.i cried the other day..am feeling so daunted about moving and uni and gettin rid of stuff and the whole passing of time...how it happens so quikly and so harshly sometimes..how you dont get the chnace to say all the things you want to say...how the moments run away without you leaving you running to catch up ...feeling bewildered. you are not alone hun, and time moving on at a pace can be such a blessing...beautiful times are here and then and now and coming...you are such a beautiful positive girl..you have such energy and love..you dont ever have to feel alone i want to write to you aswell! can you pm me your address too? love and hugs luchi xxxx
It is true, so true... A year gone by, realisations made, the world performing many circles about inside the universe and our minds moving steadily onwards in little dances. It is indeed simply us in ourselves that matter and not where we are physically - with that in mind we can live inside some truly balanced and beautiful moments. Thankyou for this post Nomy, I know how you feel, I really think I do - I was undergoing the same feelings when my room turned from a place filled with the goings on of 'me', to a blank room with nothing left but the vibe I had gently worked at and filled it with. Atmospheres and vibes that different places adopt are magically amazing... Love, Peace, Joy, Trust, HOpe, Health and Freedom... Always - Sunshine Lily xxx
