Can't give you back door advice, because I'm taking notes myself, as this is part of my future. As far as oral, courage, etc., just quit overthinking it and DO IT. I promise you the moment your lips bond with a penis you'll be hooked, and don't second guess letting him cum in your mouth and swallowing-it is an intoxicatingly hot personal connection to be shared between two consenting ADULTS, caps intended.
Hi, What do you mean by lack of honesty? If you're thinking about STDs status use a condom and avoid arcades and other places where are similar and high in risk. It's better , probably to get a FWB. Probably it is a bit more work but you can have clean fun and a lot more conversations and confidence than with casual risky hook ups. And anyways you also have to get a good clinic where you can get checked. Then keep asking questions we all are still learning and helping each other.
I have something that will really help, and it is good! REAL amyl poppers! They are strong and make everything much looser back there. I am in SW Colorado for anyone local, or even if not, to come by and visit. Dm me! Spring should be great!