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Native Vee · Nov 19, 2024

Listening to my James Taylor 8 track tape (Greatest hits)

Current song: You've got a friend

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Listening to an MP4 file

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soulcompromise · Dec 25, 2024

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JENNIE has touched on something that holds significant meaning to me; let me explain...

When I was young, there was a science fiction movie or TV show (I don't remember since this was when I was 8 or younger; around the time of the Nadia gymnastics movie) and it dealt with life in space or something. There was a need to use a Mantra to enter cryostasis or something like that; I honestly don't remember well at all, but that's where I first heard that word.

I didn't understand why they weren't praying, a little like your son or daughter doesn't understand when you are drunk or when you are having sex with them in the room, but less so; like a mild sensation of betrayal since it was only on TV. This also would have been around the time we were using VHS or Betamax to watch video recordings and then to begin renting movies; this was very popular in the United States.

When later in life I wandered away from substance abuse and into a period of questioning my sexuality, I eventually unearthed this memory, only just the one word; "mantra". I remembered I think because there was a blonde actress that I thought was sexy; I was too young to think that, but there it was! And this would have been broadcast TV and not cable and not a movie rental.

When I got enough years of questioning done, I kept the term in my social vernacular! And having wandered so far, now it felt nothing like betrayal and only like familiarity; like a prayer. I didn't have spirituality then, and didn't want much of anything that was familiar to others. I had a mantra, only I didn't repeat something like a zombie in a trance.

Now that I'm older and my questioning has been answered, I know better than to void my spiritual sensibilities by doing something others might misunderstand; like a celebrity who must keep up their persona. I don't use a mantra, but I do have a spiritual side; it's kind of shy...

As adults we need routines, and our routines cater to a very important aspect of adulthood, our priorities. What do we prioritize? For me, it's less important to prioritize praying and maybe that's a fault (I'm supposed to pray five times a day as a Muslim!) but it's very important to prioritize good over evil for me. I know I want to be responsible (emotionally responsible for how I treat others and emotionally accessible to my loved ones) and I know I want to be a legible role model and to exhibit the traits of a father such that I'll be an ok stepdad; my ex-girlfriend has a baby and I want to marry her. These are the things that I use to actualize as a person (we know self-actualization from Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs pyramid) and it's very important to me that I can see myself as both spiritually relevant (without overdoing it which is considered uncool), truthful, and responsible, but also a capable adult and a capable parent.

JENNIE's "Mantra" helps me understand meaning and gives me happy feelings and joy. She is talented and very cool, but also very thougtful, and I like that.

제니는 제게 중요한 의미를 지닌 무언가를 언급했습니다. 설명드리죠...

제가 어렸을 때 공상과학 영화나 TV 쇼가 있었습니다(제가 8살이나 그보다 어렸을 때라서 기억이 나지 않습니다. 나디아 체조 영화가 나왔을 때쯤이었습니다). 우주에서의 삶이나 그런 걸 다루는 내용이었습니다. 냉동보존이나 그런 걸 하려면 만트라를 사용해야 했습니다. 솔직히 전혀 기억이 나지 않지만, 제가 처음 그 단어를 들은 건 그때였습니다.

그들이 왜 기도하지 않는지 이해가 안 갔습니다. 마치 아들이 술에 취해 있거나 방에서 섹스를 할 때를 이해하지 못하는 것과 비슷했지만, 덜 그랬습니다. TV에서만 나오니까 배신감이 약간 느껴졌습니다. 당시는 VHS나 베타맥스로 비디오 녹화를 보고 영화를 빌리기 시작하던 시기였을 겁니다. 미국에서는 이런 방식이 매우 유행했습니다.

나중에 약물 남용에서 벗어나 성적 지향에 대해 의문을 품는 시기로 접어들었을 때, 결국 이 기억을 발굴했습니다. 단어는 하나뿐이었습니다. "만트라". 섹시하다고 생각했던 금발 여배우가 있었기 때문에 기억했던 것 같습니다. 너무 어려서 그런 생각을 할 수 없었지만, 그게 바로 그것이었습니다! 그리고 이것은 케이블이 아니라 방송 TV였을 것이고 영화 대여도 아니었을 것입니다.

몇 년 동안 의문을 품고 있었을 때, 저는 그 용어를 제 사회적 속어로 유지했습니다! 그리고 그렇게 멀리 방황한 후에는 배신 같은 느낌은 전혀 들지 않았고, 친숙함 같은 느낌만 들었습니다. 기도와 같았습니다. 그때는 영성이 없었고 다른 사람들에게 친숙한 것은 별로 원하지 않았습니다. 저는 만트라를 가지고 있었지만, 트랜스 상태에 빠진 좀비처럼 무언가를 반복하지는 않았습니다.

이제 나이가 들고 의문에 대한 답을 얻었으므로, 다른 사람들이 오해할 만한 일을 함으로써 영적 감각을 무효화하는 것보다 더 나은 것을 알게 되었습니다. 자신의 페르소나를 유지해야 하는 유명인처럼요. 저는 만트라를 사용하지 않지만, 영적인 면이 있어요. 좀 수줍은 편이죠...

어른이 되면 일상이 필요하고, 일상은 성인의 매우 중요한 측면인 우선순위에 맞춰져요. 무엇을 우선순위로 삼을까요? 저는 기도를 우선순위로 삼는 것이 덜 중요하다고 생각하고, 어쩌면 그게 잘못일 수도 있어요(저는 무슬림으로서 하루에 다섯 번 기도해야 해요!) 하지만 저에게는 선을 악보다 우선순위로 삼는 것이 매우 중요합니다. 저는 책임감 있는 사람이 되고 싶어요(다른 사람을 대하는 데 감정적으로 책임감을 갖고, 사랑하는 사람에게 감정적으로 다가갈 수 있는 사람이 되고 싶어요). 그리고 저는 눈에 띄는 롤모델이 되고 싶고, 괜찮은 계부가 될 수 있는 아버지의 특성을 보여주고 싶어요. 전 여자친구가 아기를 낳았고, 저는 그녀와 결혼하고 싶어요. 이것들은 제가 사람으로서 실현하기 위해 사용하는 것들입니다(우리는 마슬로의 욕구 계층 피라미드에서 자아 실현을 알고 있습니다). 그리고 저는 자신을 영적으로 관련성 있는(멋지지 않은 것으로 여겨지는 과도하지 않은) 사람, 진실하고 책임감 있는 사람으로 볼 수 있고, 또한 유능한 어른이자 유능한 부모로 볼 수 있다는 것이 매우 중요합니다.

제니의 "만트라"는 제가 의미를 이해하는 데 도움이 되고 행복한 감정과 기쁨을 줍니다. 그녀는 재능이 있고 매우 멋지지만, 또한 매우 사려 깊고 저는 그것을 좋아합니다.
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goatrope · Dec 29, 2024

"I'd Love to Change the World", Ten Years After

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Whirlwind83 · Jan 2, 2025

The Bella Donna album by Stevie Nicks

soulcompromise · Jan 5, 2025

I'm wondering if this reads as positive affirmation; either for avid edm fans, hipsters, or even given the Golden Globes

Mikhail Gorbachev was also called Sasha!

Who wants to remember the 80s when you can remember 2002! ^_%

Michael1985 · Jan 10, 2025

Native Vee · Jan 10, 2025

Im listening to a 78

Current song: Hey There - Rosemary Clooney

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princess peedge · Jan 11, 2025

Native Vee said: ↑

Im listening to a 78

Current song: Hey There - Rosemary Clooney

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I love Rosemary Clooney!

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soulcompromise · Jan 25, 2025

<3<3

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