Journey of desires, urges and appetite as one ages

As an aging male, I find it fascinating how my sexual desires, urges and appetite has changed through the years as I do some self-reflecting:

All a teen boy wants to do is see boobies, feel boobies and then get into a woman’s pants.

In my 20s, I had an active sex life. I even had a relationship with a girl where I earned my red wings, not only via intercourse but orally as well. Though she was initially embarrassed, eventually it became a priority when she was menstruating as both of us thoroughly enjoyed it. One thing we never tried was rubbing one of her used tampons all over my face. I think I would like that.

A long-term desire of mine, receiving a golden shower, finally came to fruition not long ago after admitting to my then girlfriend it was a fantasy, then convincing her to do it. Ultimately she complied and I loved the warmth on my face, body and even in my mouth. What really turned me on is when she would flat out tell me to get in the shower as she had "saved it up" for me without my request. I'd get undressed, lay down on the shower floor and she would let loose.

Fast-forward to today when I view regular sex as a chore and have little to no appetite for it. Though it takes a while for me to get hard, once I do I can go 20, 30, 40 minutes and still never climax. Having my manhood inside a woman just doesn't do anything for me anymore other than I know I am pleasing my partner, which I do. Fortunately, I can provide her with multiple orgasms and make her feel good.

Currently I have a strong desire about servicing a man orally. I seemingly long to see what it would feel like to have someone's manhood inside my mouth, pumping away until he releases. I do not consider myself gay nor do I find men attractive, but when I view pictures of men's genitals I get an instant erection. I think licking a man's balls and having my mouth used as a cum receptacle is something I would like to experience.

I've tasted semen once in my life and it was the only time I was brought to ejaculation while receiving oral. After filling her mouth, she kissed mine and passed it along to me. It was glorious!

I've recently been reading about cuckolding and this could be an option that tackles two issues. The Bull could service my partner I could orally service the Bull. At completion, he could coat my face with his warm splashes or finish off inside her and I could lick it up. Unfortunately, my other half would never go for this.

From wanting to feel boobies in my youth to basically not wanting anything to do with women sexually any longer is an interesting journey. Women are beautiful and I love to look at them, but what is between my legs seems to have a different urge.

 

Age has nothing to do with desires, urges, and appetite. Boredom or accomplishment does. Becoming bored with sexual activities takes time and time ages a person. Thus the two do become related. But it's not a set ratio. People find that stopping point in their exploration at a certain age and are satisfied to remain at that place. It may take years or decades. Or they can find it quickly and settle in. Over time they may become complacent and want something new and different. Or they may not.

Some can't get enough and want more or deeper experiences. For them there may be no stopping point. No place where they become complacent with their sex life. So as years, time, passes they continue seeking new pleasures as old ones have become passe. The saying is "been there, done that, got the tee shirt." This applies to everything in life. You start a new job which you are excited about. A time later the realization sets in and you ask "is this all there is?" and you are now ready to move on. But at some point you find you groove and become happy in it.

Sexually, it's most young boys desire to touch a bare breast of a woman. What comes next is having a woman touch them and the sex life goes on from there. From simple petting and kissing, to oral, intercourse, and maybe more. Many are satisfied at that level. Others delve further and further into different fetishes, no telling where they may end up. But in the end it isn't age that dictates this. It's becoming comfortable with a sexual level and happy to go no further or even recede and stop altogether. Or having experienced a level or two or more and go on to other fetishes while subconsciously asking "is this all there is?" It is a journey and where it leads for someone is only a guess.

 

I'm sixty. I want a partner that can deal with my kinks...aka take a load in the face and smile.

 

I think I am the latter. I still orgasm just as easy and I just want more and more…I suppose I do have more extreme experiences more often, but certainly will still take it anyway I can for the most part.

 

While you may want more and more what the more may be is orgasm. The need to feel euphoric is exemplified as you enjoy multiple men. It may be just a few at one time. Or expanded to include a larger number. Your internal asking "is this all there is?" could be what drives you to seek different ways to orgasm. It seems the end result you seek is always orgasm. The numbers play a role, the different ways to have sex play a role. But orgasm and how that feels to you may be what you strive for. Do you feel I'm on the right track with all of this?

 

Very likely it is the orgasm I seek and for my partners as well, the continual stimulation of multiple men and danger (whether perceived or real) seems to bring on the most intense orgasms flowing into the orgasmic trance state.

 

Ah, here you mention danger which is also a part of your desires. Plus the giving within you. You get satisfaction from giving your body up for men's pleasure. Danger is involved as you find men not really known by you and open up to them, becoming somewhat vulnerable, sexually. All this helps fuel the orgasm.

 

"Dirty old man" is an old saying for a reason. Because it is true.
For one, our interest broaden considerably.
As a young man it was all girls, girls, girls. Not even a whiff of interest in males. Zero. In fact completely repulsed by the idea.
As I topped 40, a little twinge sometimes, a curiosity about cocks. As with any man, we all love our dicks. So - it is not that big of a leap to admire a different one.
As I topped 50 - the fantasies began. As well as cam-masturbating online. I found it to be really-REALLY a turn on for men to cum while watching my naked body/jerking off.

 

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