when did you first know?

as he would most assuredly have enjoyed time with you..

 

when did I know I was attracted to both sexes?
I never saw a 'conflict', as sex was sex, I guess..

in THIS incarnation, I first had sex at 11 with a 14.5 yo buddy.. I knew NOTHING about 'sex'.. it was sinful and exciting and pleasurable.. I slipped into cumhoggery.. as far as when I started 'feeling' I wanted to be with someone a lot? 7th/8th grade? .. girls.. never thought about 'sex' because I never thought guys/girls did the same things I was just doing with guys.. I kind've 'elevated' girls above the pleasurable cesspool/sinkpit I was swimming in..

but let's go back to when I vividly remember first being tortured by erotic images..

2nd grade.. (1958/59?) 7 yo? 8 yo?
Deborah B.
her mother would walk her as far as my house and she and I would walk next 3-4 blocks..
I started having strange dreams about being in dark and hot fiery caves.. I was hanging naked by my wrists from overhead track like meat about to be butchered (with lots of other kids (guys)).. Deborah and her mother were horned with long tongues and kissing each other and me while dressed like devils in black/red underwear and they stabbed at our cocklets.. they'd whip us.. they'd laugh at us.. I'd wake up unable to move.. waking terrors.. all very disturbing.. all inexplicable unless reincarnation is a thing and tendencies are transferable.. or I was centerpiece in mixed-company sex abuse group and juxtaposed the lingerie and prodding/poking/humiliation/sexual sensations?

anyway.. after I started having 'normal'(?) feelings, I forgot about guy/guy sex for awhile and was pretty much a regular scholar-jock..
LA City lifeguard in-training, football/track, Class Prez in HS, West Point appointee (resigned) , LA County Wildland Firefighter (certified hotshot), Army enlistee 101st Airborne Division in 'Nam),

it was after HS that I started sport fucking with guys.. I suppose I missed the explosive power of sex with guys and didn't have to wine/dine them like ladies (not that I didn't like that.. I was an usher at Culver Theater in LA and reciprocity among theaters got me on VIP lists at Grauman's Chinese Theater, etc.. nothing like opening night and walking past 2,000 people to the front of line and having doorman say "welcome back Mr B", then being escorted to snack bar/seat (all No Charge).. dates must've thought "who IS this guy?"

but there's just sometimes when fucking around with a guy/guys was what I needed..

and the 2 years between HS /Army was 50/50 guys/gals.. and after Army? about 25% of the 300 or so sexcapades were with guys..

I really don't remember thinking 'sex' was gender specific.. one may have more emotional connection (though there were a few guys in LA who were attracted to me emotionally as I was to them.. somewhat), but sex with everyone in 1970s LA was recreational..

and it was rather 'safe': girls had THE PILL.. guys didn't have ovaries.. (though not COMPLETELY safe: in '73 - I was playing Pinochle with a man/woman-husband/wife couple I knew/hung out with plus another (all early 30s.. I was 22 (see profile photo)) and one of them started tracing the veins on my cock with their toes.. I figured it was the wife.. and I was right.. when it was time to go they told me to just crash there as I'd had tequila.. well..,he worked; she didn't.. whoa boy.. I'm glad they kept a lot of ice cold soda in fridge.. I worked up a sweat after kids went to school.. because mommy played..

I wish she'd told me hubby had a vasectomy.. kind've hard to explain the pregnancy.. very odd.. and he didn't talk to me for a couple of months after wife ended pregnancy.. she kept bringing rubbers to my place though.. or hotels .. she was insatiable..

I went out to SF Valley a couple of times to porn stars' orgies (the place celebrated in BOOGIE NIGHTS.. I did not participate while there, though a couple of attendees met me a few times in Santa Monica/Venice)..

I'm glad I met my wife in Nov 1975 (funny.. I got her number, she had to leave with her roommates and I went home with a guy).. if I hadn't met her when I did and slowed down, I'd likely have burned out or got caught up in the AIDS tragedy..

nowadays - after 48 years of marriage, I don't yearn for love (my wife is all the emotional warmth I need).. but I do find that suppressing sex with men caused drive to resurface and it doesn't diminish; it actually strengthens and pesters me.. all my sexual fantasies are about sex with men..

but maybe that's to be expected, as that's how I first discovered/enjoyed sex??

 

I was sexually molested when I was about 5 by an older girl and her brother so probably around that time

 

molestation sucks
must've affected you

 

Yes it did … in many parts of my life up to the present

 

I was 13 the first time I watched porn and it was a real eye opener. A lot crossed my mind while looking at that screen and one of most important things was the fact that I really liked seeing those big hard cocks. I knew I was definitely attracted to females, but this confirmed that I was at least sexually attracted to males. Watching straight porn confirmed my bisexuality.

 

Can't say at what age I was first attracted to females but but by age 11 I knew that I was very interested in them. My attraction for men was decades later when my wife started using a dildo on me and told me the real thing was much better.