hiya, its been months since ive made a post here.. must be more than 6...ive been living in austria working as an aupair since september.. and ive lost touch with lots of people frmo here that i want to keep in touch with.. its just the rare times i get on the internet i never seem to hae time to emaile veryone i want to and then i forget.. anyway i want ted to say hello to everyone.. ill be home in exactly three weeks andthen i hope to rejoin the hipforums community again (if youll have me!) ly life has changed so much since being here.. its strange.. ive learnt a lot of things.. ive learnt to like olives, coffee and german grammar...ive learnt how to look after children.. ive also learnt what its like to live in a house with a family thats not my own, i think thats been the hardest as i havnt had a space thats mine.. i also know now what its like to be homesick..im really looking forward to coming home now as ive had enough of working really long hours for little pay, on the other hand im scared of coming home as everythign will have changed... its been a strange experience...ive been living in a muslim family where half the time germans spoken.. sometimes english.. a lot of the time turkish and a bit of arabic..its been a situation i wasnt used to but its been interesting... however i havnt learnt how not to ramble as you can see im still doing it.. hmm anway.. my email address is minnietheminx86@hotmail.com ill be back on msn in three weeks.. thats not long right? kat xx p.s. glastonbury tickets go on say april 3rd.. www.glastonburyfestivals.co.uk for more information.. p.p.s sal smells of poo (some things never change eh)
Good to hear you're coming back soon. Are you gonna try to get Glasto tickets? It may be a bit of a mission this year. Still, there's always Beautiful Days. PS. Kat is a stinky pooplops....
your kidding, its been 6 months already?! wow...... i must appologise too for being so crap at keeping in touch, but whats time between friends anyways eh?! glad to know you had a life changing experience and shall be most wonderful having you back where you belong in the community! love an hugs N x
Wow... where has all the time gone, eh?... Eh, there's a viscious rumour that I may be going to Beautiful Days this year... so it would be great to meet up and snog... errrrrrrrr... I mean exchange a meaningful conversation... Nah... we could meet and snog... tee hee... Fly...
KAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT!!!! I mean GERTRUUUUUUUUDE! Good to hear from you, you've been missed for sure. They'll be so much to catch up on when you get back, I want to hear all about your adventure. I can't believe it's Glastonbury ticket madness time already! I've been hyping myself up for the last few weeks ready for the grewling task of getting those darn tickets, I think I'm mentally and physically ready now. I really hope we both get them so we can go to the tiny tea tent and if the weather is anything like last year....mud sledging! Speak to you soon chuck, Maureen/Rosie x
I'm eating olives as i write this im back from austria now and have beenback a while.. i didnt want to start up a new thread as have already made two new ones today.. Ive never been so happy to be home.. so much seems to have changed since i wrote that post and i need to tell people and its not something i can do face to face.. A friend of mine died whilst i was in austria.. she was austrian but had lived in dorset for two years and was the sister of the person i was stayign with.. she was only 30..we worked together in oxfam... she taught me german in school.. whilst i was in austria we had been to the casino together, we had been to the czech republic..and all sorts of things...one day she went to sleep and didnt wake up because her heart failed..just like that.. im still angry at her heart... she was someone that noone had ever said a bad word about her.. its just not fair.. she had such a healthy lifestyle.. didnt smoke, eat meat and rarely drank alcohol.. i miss her so much and theres so much i want to tell her... but since then ivebeen thinking.. im now scared of making important decisions.. im scared because i know now that life really is short and can end at any time and i want it to end with me being happy..im scared ive made the wrong choice for uni courses, im thinking maybe i shouldnt be in england for the next six months.. i should be doing somethign exciting instead of temp work... i feel like this death has changed me.. sure i can revert back to my old self but her dyign was an unexpected and unwelcome entrance into the adult world and i wish i was back to a simple life at school where i didnt have to make decisions.. i need to get my arse into gear and start to do things.. i want to learn french.. learn to knit.. get fit...but im just lazing about at home im getting there though.. i just made bread.. i guess these things take time did i make any sense? ignore me..probably the best solution... je m'appelle katherine.. im getting there see...
oh hun *hugs* im so sorry that this happened to you and her family, but you know what-the gift she left you with will be invaluable. i too had a close friend die when i was only 11 and i had the reprocussions of that to deal with, which is another story entirely. but my friend left me with the most amazing gift and its to be who you are in every single second, regardless. you now know how exceptionally fragile life is, how to let everyone know how much you care about them, just in case you never get teh chance to tell them again. you are doing the right things, go out, grab life byt eh hand and give it the biggest hug you could imagine! by her awful unfair death she has given you a girf, and to me it sounds like you already using it.....good for you...*hugs* N x
Hiya Kat... so sorry for the loss of your friend... but it sounds like something has changed inside you... and now you must make the most of it... The only advice that I can give you is to do what feels right... you and I both know what it feels like to be doing something that feels wrong... and if you are spending your time working away at something that just feels wrong, then you have to ask yourself if it is all worth it... you will know when you are doing something that is right for you because you won't question if it is the right thing... love and hugs... Fly...
Thankyou guys... its strange.. the past year ive not posted much on this forum but ive always felt the people here are people i could always talk to.. it was in fact a forum member i turned to when i first heard about this death and that person was very helpful to. that's a probably a very true comment..but im still confused.. because i know the decisions ive made will be right in the future.. they will lead me on to a good life and degree blahblahblah.. but how do i knwo its right for me?how do i know if ill live up to expectations?if ill be able to do as well as my genius brother and sister?if ill cope at all?if ill be happy? the truth is i dont know what feels right.. ah i need a poofight
well you asked for it...... *throws a whole bunch of poo at kat* (you know it think that may indeed be the first time you have been the target of my wonderful poo throwing talents, so just this once i think you shouldaccept it graciously and feel special, at least till the poop pheonix comes along!) N x
