10 years pass and Im still trying to heal.

the words not very intelligent an ignoring your mental troubles in the same sentence ,well dont you win a gold star . welcome to th upside down world where everything ripples an then what if it doesnt stop rippling an you have serious scar that affects your life as in having a child to gettin a life partener or even figuring out what to do with your life . for a site with groovy open minded people you sure are quick to judge , a sad state of affairs you dont know me how dare you decide if i am intelligent ,you know nothin of me or my life. you go ahead an ignore your mental troubles hey it worked for syd barret oh no wait thats right like a lot of other heavy trippers he never came down a great musician who lost it all spent th end of his days livin in his mums council house basement , point being you dont know me so dont judge me .

 

Well, conditioning is a hard pill to swallow. No one ever said it was easy to accept. The inability to cope with having the truth exposed full blast at face value is a weakness in my eyes. I apologize if that offends anyone, but life is offensive.

 

The master of articulation.

 

stalk you should see some of the responses I get in other forums I visit. I've posted a wealth of information on psychedelics and spirituality, only to have a sentence or two selected and warped to fit organizational agendas. Even Yogananda's organization members, which is the saddest of all.
People can only accept what they can handle. When we cant learn how to invite pain, understand it, and watch it go, we are living in fear constantly, even in what we perceive as serenity. I just love getting people wound up, my own weakness :tongue:
God Bless +

 

SocialDisaster, when did you first start taking it..

 

LMAOQ! Too Good..

 

First time I took it was when I was 15. This is up for debate though It doesn't seem anywhere near the same experience i had when I was 17. The first time actually pretty nice, so it makes me question what it was. I was also drinking and it was a long time ago....Maybe a weaker acid? who knows all i know it was nothing like what i was going to experience on the sugar cubes. The second time i did it was 17, this was no joke and a huge experience. this one would have been considered a bad trip and left me with a ton of questions. A year later the chance to do it came back around. I was actually dieing to try and figure out what happened to me the second time. Hoping to awnser some of my questions I did it again. Oh,,,boy,,,third time was another mind blowing experience and yet again what people would consider a bad trip. Shortly after I had some mushrooms and had a great time <shrug>. After my exiting youth was over i gave it all up and haven't done it again.

 

10 years passed and this dudes still trying to learn more about something that bugged him out for ten years to probably bug himself out some more.

Forgive yourself and forget the experience. The past has no reality of it's own. What happened happened, what can you change by mentally dwelling on the situation for the rest of your life besides living uncomfortably and in uncertainty? The bad trip is probably telling you, "relax". Seeing as you forgot about it while you were occupied, chances are it's not really that important.

 

nope life isnt offensive people are , typicall red neck arent ya , tut ,bloody americans

 

oh i see your his girlfriend how cute holding cyber hands under th desk lovely ,bless , aint you sweet

 

ahhh , aint you giving going around gettin folk wound up in different forums for kicks . i would of replied earlier but i have a real life like a real man so i was busy living i dont get time for jerkin off on th internet for kicks as doing real things in real life takes up time . but you gotta get yer kicks some how , people cant accept what they cant handle well duh , if they cant handle it its not likely theyll accept it , any ways the west will rise again aye , you keep that dream alive .an maybe one day talk to people face to face with your views or is it easier hiding behind a computer where they cant speak back to your face or are you visually lacking in some way which affects your confidence in social situations ? what ever the reason go outside get a life silly man , with your big talk blah blah yak yak , yer just a big mouthy lovely yank , love ya bye

 

Haha thanks for making my morning meanok
Love ya too!

 

I think meanok seemed very intelligent but had a different view. RELAYER you really aggravated him to act a bit silly there, your 'articulation' there was quite insubstantial. I don't think you can equate 'conditioning yourself to upside down world' with 'recovering from a mental scar'

 

It's ok, I enjoyed his sillyness, it only furthers my point. Intelligence as Rumi says in his poem, is concerned with floating above the ocean, while love is about drowning. When you have to prove to yourself that your ok, then you are just fighting the inevitable. The unkown mental frontiers tend to have many intellectuals shy away and try to remain in what they believe to be control. If someone feels so threatened by my statement that they need to make sweeping judgements on my person and attempt to insult me, it becomes quite clear how useful the supposed intelligence they harbour is. First he says I know nothing about him or his mental troubles, then he comes at me and calls me a redneck, and by 'tut, bloody americans' I assume he is pointing a finger at the rest of our country? Like many people on this forum who back down from discussion the moment anything someone says goes into realms of experience they have not touched yet and therefor is perceived as delusional, he dropped his intelligent guard and went in for the ego booster.

 

wrong wrong wrong i just thought i would give back the same kinda judgemant that you gave me to see if it flicked your switch an tut bloody americans was a purposeful statement just to get a rise man i wasnt even sure you were american ,it was a lucky guess,but hey it got a reaction . . an sweeping judgements is exactly what i was aiming for because thaqts exactly what you gave me , just wondered how you would take your own treatment ,guess you dont like it huh flirty boy! now breath in deeply an on the out breathe learn to let go. although you probably got that dictionary to scroll through an more tantilizing come backs of such enormous wit and drive that you can pull out of your massive presidentual brain x

 

i appreciate your concern but, i was being silly on purpose just for the fun of it as i find the guy a pain in the ass commenting on a sympathetic message to social dissorder ,i mean still healing after 10 years poor guy i just felt sorry for him an tried to offer a little tlc i have had friends who went the same way ,i just dont appreciate otners coming in an judgeing my intelligence baased on a message to someone in need an their statements were insulting and dumb really ,i mean each an to their own but to make such insulting statements to someone you dont know when all they are doing is offering sympathy what a world .so seeing th kind of person i was dealin with i thougth ok you wanna play ? an cranked it to a level i never go to as it is stupid an insultin but thought if anything is gonna stir em that will still thanx anyway man the guy just needs to learn to play nice i know people like him all wind an piss or as my gran would say all mouth an trousers oh i got nothin against usa either just a few individuals cheersx

 

:blush5: oh stop it, your making me wet

 

haha lol how did I miss this thread.

 

it is not just trippers that feel this way. Jung spoke of synchronicity often.

everything happens for a reason. ANd as soon as you realize that there are no coincidences...these synchronicities speed up to where you feel you are constantly creating magic.

Enjoy

 

mhm others speak of these philosophies. The point remains. Coincidence? Meaning? they are just feelings we have