Alright my name Alex I’m 15 and I have been having these weird feelings for other men for about a year now and have come to the conclusion that I am GAY or BI (but I don’t want to be). Every time when I’m watching porn I always find my self staring at the guy/guys. So I tried testing my theory out by watching gay porn and to my surprise I had an immediate hard on and found my self masturbating to gay porn in my mind I was shocked, I wanted to stop but for some reason I couldn’t. I want to stop but now it feels wrong not to watch gay porn instead of straight pornography. I want to tell someone about these feelings, but my parents are divorced my mom is never around and my dad hates gays and my friends aren’t the most supportive in situations like this and most of them are not fond of gay people. I just need some help dealing with these feelings please someone help me (all I can find myself doing is crying because I’m unsure of what to do). to contact me > aazelf@yahoo.com
When I was fourteen, I realized that I was sexually attracted to guys. Because I was young, having just reached puberty, it was a confusing time in my life for me. I did not want to be gay. I tried the church route, but that did not help me. It took me two years to come to terms with who I was, that there was nothing wrong with being gay. Give yourself some time to discover who you are. You're still young.
Meh, that was exactly when I started to worry aswell. Watching the guy alot in porn. :/ I went through massive denial for ages but wasn't depresed or anything, just ignored that whole side of me. In the end it just built up so much in my head that I realised I'd have to straighten things out in my head (pun not intended ). Now i'm perfectly fine with it. ^_^ As AiryFox said, you've still got plenty of time to find out what it is you want. Don't panic about it either, at 15 most friends are generally goons about homosexuality. When you're ready to come out, the chances are they'll generally be alot more laid back about it.
it took me a solid 2 years to admit to even myself that i was bi, and about another year before i told a single person. at first i just kind of ignored it, thinking it would go away, but the truth is it's a part of who you are (a very big part) and you have to accept it if you want to stay sane. that could take a while, and that's fine there's no rush, what's important is that you don't think there's something wrong with you. because there isn't.
