Afraid to work?

For some reason everytime I get a job I freak out. I get nausous and I cry and I end up not going. I've only had three jobs, and only one of them was actually good. I got used to it, got past my freak outs, and was working there just fine. Then they fired all of us. Wanted to change all the staff. The job before that I was working at for 7 months but the freak outs just never ended. I had to leave because I was contemplating suicide and was on antidepressants. As soon as I left the job I felt better again. The one before that I was only at for a month. I was working at a food place and it was a CRAPPY job. The manager didn't train me at all and yelled at us and the other workers were rude.

Now I don't even want to job hunt. Even that makes me feel ill. I'm thinking of trying to see a councilor... I'm not sure if I'm just letting my nerves get the best of me or if there's something wrong with me for real.

When I do work I'm an excellent worker. All my jobs have told me that. Even the one that I was on antidepressants at. They said I was one of the best there, and I had major potention. Apparently if I were to stay I would have gotten a $3 raise. But I still freaked out! I don't know what my deal is.

 

Maybe you need more incentive.

 

In two months my parents are kicking me out. I'm an adult. I have to learn to live on my own. (I'm 20) And since I'm not taking "proper" courses they don't want me to stay there. I love music and my dad thinks going to school for music is a mistake, and therefore I can't stay here. I have to work. Or I'm going to end up a bum on the street.

 

You have poor social skills. You already know that though.


I am left to wonder why you haven't looked for help or reasons why.

Parents? Sibling? Shrink?

 

I think you should get a hair cut you damn Hippie!!!!!!!

 

Thats the strange thing. I get along perfectly with people. I'm totally social! Lots of friends, happy to meet new people. I love to go out, clubbing, bars, down the street and bump into someone... I'm forever nagging at my boyfriend to come out with me and do more things. But work... I don't know.. I love school. So I don't know whats the deal with that because I'm intelligent and I'm competent. It's just if it's a job... I don't know.. something in my head shuts off.. It's dibilitating.

 

It sounds like you might have an anxiety or a phobia that is preventing you from finding work - perhaps just basic social anxiety or maybe an avoidant disorder of sorts. Depression can do it, too.

 

Hmmm.... weird.

Maybe you're just spoiled?

 

SPANGE for a living. You'll get good at it.

 

aaaaaa ha ha.

 

I am having another one of my stupid moments..

Crummy what is SPANGE?



and Silver Penny what is it, that you were doing for a living?

 

why would anyone like working for someone else its degrading slavery ....nothing wrong with you ....capitalism however is insane!

 

spare changing

 

does anyone have 10 bucks so i can shoot a bag of smack?

 

he y bro....spare some change? I am just trying to get 7 more dollars to get a fanbelt for my car........

 

(laughing) Spange!! I like it!!

 

it becomes a game.

 

NO WAY!!!

It is the essence of exchange. Exchange is necessary to live communally. Our ability to function in a community is our evolution.

 

your a fucking fool if you think your alianated labor for a speculator represents some kind of comunal equal exchange ,,,,if you make a capitalist a hundred bucks he throws u 8 and the gov takes another 3 ...u have no say in what you do your nuts hippy

 

what kind of work are you dooing. Id sugest looking for a totaly different line of work. see if htat helps.