Yeah. Ah-hum. Well this comes in two parts. First of all, when I lost my virginity, and took my boyfriend's virginity, I was already thinking about dumping him, I just wanted to get it over and done with. It's not like I'm sex mad, cause I haven't been with anyone since, and I'm not really bothered about being with anyone right now. The second bit is that afterwards we get this phonecall afterwards, and his grandmother has just died (i have a theory i kill grandmother's when i have sex, but that's another story). Well, I wanted to laugh. The situation was too absurd, and this kind of this makes me laugh. I mean, is this going to be a memorable day in this guys life, or what? I soooo wanted to laugh. I didn't, but when I got home to an empty house I burst into hysterics. I gave myself a stitch. Anyway, I don't feel guilty about either of the above things, but something tells me I should. I don't regret anything.
I wouldn;t . I entered into my first relationship knowing I'd loose my virginity, and leave her when it suited me. As for the grandmother, That same GF and I were getting it on when she burst into tears, and told me she had to call me mum because "something" was wrong. She called, and mom said everything was fine. 10 minutes latter mom was at the door. My gf's grandfather had died.
Yeah, it was embarassing and a little irratating when he burst into tears. He was fine at first, and then he suddenly exploded. Anyway, in a house full of his family I was quick to get out of their asap. :&
Yeah Opening the door, seeing her mum in tears with aunti n town. "Uh one sec" head downstairs "Bon get dressed, you need to go" not much to say post intercourse death notice. I'm just glad I'm not the only one!
Hey I'm in my grandmothers will. I get half her estate and 100,000 dollars...Can you come sleep with me really quick? Kay thanks buh bye JK my granny has no estate....or 100,000...........
just to get real for a moment. I was just having this discussion with some girls your age today. Like the pressure of hanging it over your head...did you feel it that much to take that attitude. Like these girls were saying, "I know the first time is gonna suck so it really doesn't matter who it happens with or how...it just needs to happen so I can get on enjoying what I am supposed to." It's hard for me to deal with this sort of stuff...because honestly I think sex without love depletes the soul. And not that you are super young, but you are young and viginity is something pure, holy, untainted from the world. don't mean to be holy here...just, well i'll just shut up and put my socks on my hands so i can't type anymore....sajkhfcjh safh ckhw
there is no such thing as BEING a 'good' OR 'bad' PERSON! there is however the bennifit and harm of the things that we do, and the real natural collective consiquences of the priorities we ACTUALY live by. the more harm there is floating arround the more likely each and every last one of us is, both severaly AND SINGLY, to be harmed by it. and of course the more any of us causes the more there is floating arround. the arbitrary assumptions of ANY belief, idiology or anything else, ain't got diddly to do with it. =^^= .../\...
Well... call me cold hearted but no I don't think you should feel bad. Yah his grandma died and thats sad for him. Breaking up with him was just something you had to do regardless of him. And it is kind of funny.... it coinsedently funny. So I don't think you should feel bad, because if you stayed with him through out his grandmas death would have been worse.
the grandma thing isn't your fault, and your only as bad a person as you think you are for the sex thing
