another confession

Discussion in 'True Confessions' started by Ingrid, Apr 22, 2005.

  1. Ingrid

    Ingrid Visitor

    erm.. i'm a bit embarrassed about some of this stuff but i'm fed up of keeping it all to myself.. well I have alot of anxietys, I don't go out alot basicly because i'm to scared and when i do it takes me alot of thinking before i even decide to go to the paper shop, I hate being around alot of people.
    I am a non-school attender because of this and get one-to-one tuition, my hair started to fall out from stress then started to pull my hair out untill i had pretty much none left (it's an illness calledtrichotillomania) so i shaved the rest off. It is gradually growing back though. I have depression and see a psychologist that i go to every two weeks but it's not helped much yet. and my sleeping pattern is all fucked up, so i'm really not that happy a person right now.

    i'm looking for anyone who has been or is going through any of the same things, anyone who can help, or just wants to leave a comment.:&
     
  2. Zeitgeist

    Zeitgeist Hip Forums Supporter HipForums Supporter

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    I want to add you to my msn, but I thought I'd better ask first. Is that ok?

    Much love and a giant (completely useless) e-hug,

    Lauren xxx
     
  3. Ingrid

    Ingrid Visitor

    yeah its fine.

    x Ingrid x
     
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  5. Xac

    Xac Visitor

    Hey Ingrid, i was pretty much fine at your age but now that i am older i am suffering almost the exact same problem minus the hair issue... i dont sleep well it and is very stressfull for me to leave the house so i am also not a very happy person either... anyway if you want to talk to someone that also suffers anxiety feel free to PM me.
     
  6. HydroNchronic413

    HydroNchronic413 Member

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    i hate doing a lot of things alone...walking across the street, going to the mall, crowded places...
    first of all...i always think everyone is staring at me. its horrible. if im walking across the street i feel like everyone's watching me. if i'm with a friend or someone else it's different because i feel like the attention is diverted away from me if they should glance in my direction. if I walk by a group of people i get all nervous and lightheaded and sweaty. i dont really know why, i dont know whats wrong with me.
     
  7. Small_Brown

    Small_Brown Senior Member

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    I have the same thing...I don't like going places with crowds, or even with people because I feel as if everyone is looking at me...I get all nervous, hot and itchy. I know it isnt normal, but theres nothing I can do about it. I mostly just stay at home. The only time I actually do go out is to go for a run, or rollerblading, then I can listen to music and not focus on the people.:(
     
  8. Bassist

    Bassist Gate crasher!

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    That's exactly how I feel.
     
  9. headymoechick

    headymoechick I have no idea

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    I have trich. too. I don't really know how to control it 100%. I have gotten to the point where I just pull out my eyelashes occasionally and I dig and scratch at my head until it bleeds. I used to pull out my hair. I wish I could offer some useful advice, but I can't. All I can tell you is that I know exactly how you feel.
     
  10. orange skies

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    things will get better as you get older,more than likely. i was exactly the same at your age i hated going out even to the mall, people freaked me out i couldnt breathe properly, a lot of my hair fell out in my final year of school. i grew out of it because i had to eventually go out and face the world i still get nervous but i just grew out of it after a while. you will too just keep on thinking nothing bad is gonna come out of me going out. honestly whats the worst that'll happen?
     
  11. old tiger

    old tiger Senior Member

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    Hallo,

    To all of you I would like to tell..
    It's something like agorofobia..when I was about 23 and had
    long hair+beard..everybody discriminated me here in this village..
    I felt the same like you all do..closed myself up..
    and when I left home..it was sometimes with a lot of questions like..
    what will he think of me??what will she think of me??
    it's something mental..which is sometimes not to control..
    the whole thing is the fact that one suffers from a minority
    complex..try to put yourselves over it..
    nobody feels bad about you..It's all within yourselves..
    fixed ideas..the hair pulling thing..I used to do as well.
    it's because one is nervous about something..strange thing is..
    that I still have lots of hair for my 59 years age..very funny..
    I have never been in therapy or whatever..
    self investigation+selfcontrol can give a solution to these problems..
    and if anyone here can help you out..
    they should speak out..NOBODY is perfect..
    Everbody hides a WALL..a dark side..
    which we are afraid to tell anyone..
    Why??If we don't talk about our problems??
    they will never get solved..
    SO..come on..fight back..
    and show..that HIPPIES will survive forever:)
     
  12. headymoechick

    headymoechick I have no idea

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    I have tried to find out what causes my trich. I've been doing this compulsively since I was 4 or 5. I have expressed enough control that I don't pull hair out hradly anymore, but I keep the picking and pulling at my scalp. I haven't been able to go a day without doing it.

    I agree that most problems can be solved with determination and strength from within. I am living proof it works! But this issue has me stumped.
     
  13. Ingrid

    Ingrid Visitor

    well my hair got so bad from trich i shaved it off and thats solved the problem i still have the urge to pull at it but theres nothing there to pull out :D
     

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