Don't really know if i should post this here, or... but i was already on here anyways when this suddenly happened and i'm not really wanting to look around to find where to post this right now... Anxiety, what the fuck! that's all i can think of to say right now... I don't know what causes it, i know i've had bad anxiety for a long time now, i feel unfocused and isolated, unable to focus etc, from depersonalization and derealization, but i don't get why i have it, i'm 17... i have no real stress or major issues... yet i have the worse anxiety ever. I'm only posting this because i'm having the worst 'anxiety attack' ever right now... at least i think it's anxiety, i don't even know anymore... I'm just sitting here on my laptop when all of a sudden everything got really bright, i have to squint to look at my screen, and everything looks really fucked up (and no i'm not high, i haven't even smoked weed since yesterday) all the colors and the walls looked blurred and really bright, and i feel a tad nauseous, and the rooms spinning a bit, and i just feel completely out of it, i feel really high yet i'm on no drugs at all, but it's not a good "high" its like hell... my heads pounding, i almost feel as if i'm just melting sitting here, i can't even think right now, i can barely even look at my computer screen... I've had symptoms like this before, usually only when i'm sitting in class, happens every day, but it's never this bad, it's usually just very mild and it only makes me unable to focus in class... but suddenly its like.. amplified by a 100... this has happened a few times my answer to it has always been "ohh its derealization/depersonalization caused by anxiety" but i don't even know anymore... i dont even know if this makes sense... i probably look retarded even posting this... but this is some freaky shit, it comes out of nowhere...
I feel more high right now than i normally do with weed, yet i'm not even on any drugs! This would be really cool if i didn't think something was really wrong with me... What could this be? Really bad anxiety? Something else? I don't even know, thinking about it makes it even worse though...
The first thing to do when anxiety hits is to take a second to breathe deeply and let the panic subside man. Could the physical symptoms maybe be dehydration? Staring at a screen too long? A migraine of some sort?
Happens to a LOT of people. Why do you think so many people pop Xanax? I would recommend avoiding benzos though as they just cause rebound unless you're able to pop one every 3 hours for the rest of your life. Oh and the withdrawal symptoms are something else. I brought this up because I know people IRL or on here will bring up benzos since they are so ubiquitous. One of the issues with anxiety and what I experienced is the trap of creating a sanctuary. This can either be drugs; a room or placed filled with things that relax you; the Internet; or all of them. The problem is, once you become dependent on that, it makes it that much tougher to function in the real world. Trust me, if you don't function well in the real world, the real world will come into your sanctuary and crush it to pieces. Have you seen a psychologist and psychiatrist yet? I recommend a psychologist/therapist first because they can try to solve the problem without chemicals. If this shit just began, then nip it in the bud. You have that free health care up there, use that shit. I wish I had that. I can't afford a therapist.
That's possible, but i stay pretty hydrated for the most part and eat plenty, and i usually don't have migraines... that being said, i have the worst headache ever as typing this but it could be something physical other than anxiety, never got checked for anything... I wish i could take some xanax, that would be the best. Except i don't want to have to go to a doctor to describe my issues of anxiety... just thinking about it makes my anxiety feel even worse, i get extremely nervous under situations like that... and the worse part would be having to tell my parents in the first place in order for them to take me to the doctors, that's what i wouldn't want to do... i just feel as if they would laugh at or mock me, or not take me seriously... And i don't think i'll have that issue of creating a sanctuary, because i don't even have one... i wish i did! Nothing really calms me down, weed makes it worse, and i get most of my panic/anxiety attacks in my room itself, or at school...Schools pretty bad because of all the voices and sounds too, it makes it seem way worse, all the voices seem to combine into one big mumble and i feel as if i'm literally spinning and just completely zone out... and no i haven't talked to a doctor or psychologist or psychiatrist, because i reeally don't want to tell my parents about this... and i have no clue how this even started, so i wouldnt even know what to say... but it's been going on for about a year or so, maybe even a bit longer
you should definitely tell your parents, and your doctor. it'll probably be hard at first but then you'll feel like a weight has been lifted off of your shoulders. if you're smoking a lot of pot, you might want to try taking a few weeks off and see if things get better. weed is awesome, but not if it's contributing to this.
I don't think that you necessarily need to tell your parents about this. So if you are covered by your parent's insurance, maybe you could call the insurer and ask if your parents have to approve visits You could also make up some bs reason why you need to see the doctor. I don't think that the doctor has to report back to your parents. One thing that will probably help is to meditate. Take off your shoes, just sit and close your eyes in a quiet place. Try to empty your mind. this can help a lot. try to do it as long as you can. an hour is ideal, but you would probably have to work up to that.
if your parents health plan will be paying for medications and therapy (not everything in Canada is free...), then they're going to know at some point.
you may also want to cut way back on sugar and caffeine generally lower your amount of mental activity and stimulation try including some rice in your diet
That's true, i think telling people would help in stopping it even... The whole keeping it a secrete thing makes it even worse i think, but it would be so... awkward, to tell them... I dunno, like, how would one randomly just be like "Oh, i have really bad anxiety..." they wouldn't even understand how horrible it actually is, and probably end up not taking it that seriously. But i do think weed does make it worse... I do remember feeling like this a few times in my life before weed, but rarely, but once i started smoking regularly a year ago it's gotten much worse and anxiety attacks became a regular thing, and now that i've been smoking daily for months it's gotten very bad... It would suck to just stop smoking though... I just wish i had some xanax lol... I don't know if we have health insurance in Canada? I dunno, all the health differences between the US and Canada confuse me... We just drop by the doctors office whenever pretty much, i don't think my parents need to be there because i'm 17 (18 in a month, i could wait until then?) but... i've never even been to a doctors before on my own, the idea of that is quite nerve-wrecking too... the whole situation is very horrible in my eyes for some reason... I just wish somebody could just get me some xanax or some good pills to get rid of it without me having to talk to all these people... And i do try meditation, i think it helps a bit, i should do it more frequently though... I usually only do it about twice a month at night until i fall asleep
That's true, i think if i did go to a doctor i would tell them about it first... but i think i might just wait until i turn 18, don't i go into all my own health plans and stuff automatically at that point? I'm not sure... I could just wait a few years until l'm an actual adult and i can just do it on my own... but that may mean years of suffering... I do think quitting weed would help, but i don't really want to quit.... but i can't interact with people when high at all, and it makes me soo paranoid and anxious about everything my anxiety gets way worse... Is there anything i can do that would help change that? I want to be one of those people that just get really calmed and relaxed off of weed and can still interact with people in social situations...
what do you like about weed? from the way you describe it, it sounds like you just do it because you're supposed to or something
I don't really know, it helps me sleep, and being high is a lot better than being sober... it lifts my mood a lot too. I only smoke weed alone in my room, because i can't handle social interactions on it, but i love it when i'm home alone and smoking... it's the best, i only get paranoid when others are around or if there's a risk of getting busted... I just wish i could be like those people that can smoke to get calmed and relaxed, and smoke while hanging out and talking to people...
might be the type of weed you're smoking, or just that you're 17 and have to worry about getting caught and stuff. maybe take a couple weeks off and see if your mood changes or your anxiety lessens? it's worth a try. I've done it a couple times to try and see if my smoking was affecting my anxiety, but I didn't really see much of a difference.
That's true, i've only smoked about 4-5 different strains before (i don't actually know if they're different strains, but i've smoked many times with 3 different people with 3 different types of weed, plus the weed i normally smoke that i get from my dealer) but i've always felt like this nomatter what weed i'm smoking... except once i didnt, but it was really dry stuff that was schwag, so i probably didn't get anxiety from it because it didn't get my high enough... I think my mood gets a lot worse when i stop smoking, for the first few days anyways... but my anxiety does decrease after the first few days as well... but then what am i supposed to do? I don't wanna just not smoke weed ever again lol, i wouldn't mind replacing it with another drug, except i have no connections to anything other than weed
I don't think telling people would be so awkward. I'm sure you have a friend that you're pretty close with - it won't be as big a deal as you think. Most other people have their own problems anyway. It'll be a big load off of your chest and could very well help you feel better. When I first started smoking I really enjoyed getting high, but I would often get anxious when I was stoned. I still enjoyed smoking because it was a pleasurable buzz but the paranoia could be pretty intense sometimes. I feel like I eventually outsmoked my anxiety that came from smoking, or maybe I just got older and stopped worrying about the same things while smoking. Personally I find what helps is to just try to calm my thoughts through breathing, focusing on something else etc. In any case, I agree that you should take a break if you think it contributes significantly to your anxiety.
I suffered from anxiety all my life, sometimes they happen randomly and they freak me out. The first one happened inside the mall cause I felt sufficated. Then when I started working at Walmart I experienced them on a daily basis. Hope your anxiety gets better! Stay strong.
Well i have told my girlfriend about all of this, but she's the only person i've ever told and it's not like she can really do anything to help. I'm not a very open person though, i never tell any people in real life my actual issues. It's very awkward and weird for me... Maybe my anxiety will go away eventually, i should try calming down before smoking a few times and see if that helps... But if not, i guess i'll try stopping for a week or so and see if it makes a difference.
I dunno,,I have anxiety sometimes. Mostly over money and responsibility,,how to make things work on limited resources, and whether we'll make it to the end of the month,, So,,,sometimes I'm anxious,,and also when I'm high, I get those sudden thoughts, like,,"Oh shit. I'm sitting directly under the bathtub. I think it's going to fall right through the ceiling on my head. Ohmigod, even if it wasn't going to happen, it's gonna happen now, because I'm thinking it, and the more I think it, the more I believe it, so it just has to happen,," And then I suddenly get up off the couch and go for a walk outside just to get away from "the bathtub". Stupid, senseless anxiety. There's "gonna be an earthquake, and everything is going to fall apart, and the earth will open up and I'll fall in,,",,etc. I once got anxious while driving on the freeway,,"Oh no,,this steering wheel is going to fall off, and the steering column is going to impale me, run right through my chest while I sit here driving,," So, believe it or not, I drove the rest of the way home sitting "next to" the steering wheel, instead of right behind it. I've had enough of these to know when it's "just the weed, man",,,so I've learned to reject those kinds of panic attacks. But I'm not one to say I've never tried something, so,,, Once in a while I'll just find a private place where I can yell and scream, without scaring people,,and go "Oh Goooddddd,,,help meeee,,,help me right now,,,help me, Jesus,,,save me,,,save me,,,save me, Jesus,,,AAAAAAGGGGHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhh,,," Just because,,, if I hadn't, I wouldn't know,, :sunny: But it usually works. At least it works because if I hadn't done it, I would always think,,"What if I call on Jesus?" I feel much better afterward. Just be real.
Haha, i never really have that type of anxiety of fears I honestly don't know what causes my anxiety... I'm 17, in school, have no responsibilities whatsoever, yet i have extreme anxiety all the time... It's just a very nervous/sick to my stomach and anxious feeling 24/7 pretty much. And my vision goes weird, i become unfocused, i zone out, i feel sick to my stomach, i almost feel out-of-body when it gets really bad (i think its depersonalizaion/derealization which is caused by anxiety) and it all just really sucks in general... I have no specific fears or things that trigger my anxiety... it's just always kind of there, sometimes it's barely noticable, but then other times it gets extreme... it's pretty bad right now...
