Ive been really depressed and suffer from sever social anxiety. I am working hard to feel btter about myself but I cant seem to find the point in life I am not suicidal but life just seem pointless. I am 7 months sober and I should feel happy about that and I dont?
First of all, congratulations on being 7 months sober. Second, keep your head up. The thing is, being sober is not going to bring you happinness. Whatever your drug of choice was, it was used as a distraction. Now you have taken that away from yourself, and now I guess we could say the ''real'' work can start. Look into mindfullness meditation. You need to experience whatever negative emotion that is cooped up inside you. Your depression and anxiety are just sadness and fear, with nasty thoughts attached to them. It's when you try to fight your sadness or fight your fear that you get depressed and anxious. Befriend them, accept them, experience them, let them grow inside of you until they have nowhere to go but out. Make sure you are eating enough. If you need some relief, go for a hard run. Run until you are almost puking. Your brain will be flooded with endorphins, and you will have a moment of peace. This will not be the long term, permanent solution, but we all need a moment of relief from time to time. Keep your head up! My thoughts are with you.
you might want to check out this book "Curing Depression Naturally with Chinese Medicine" http://bluepoppy.com/cfwebstore/index.cfm?fuseaction=product.display&product_ID=371&ParentCat=33 you could also look into some conventional medicine
