Bad trip

im a senior and the other day,I had a bad trip. This is my weed history just so you can understand me better. The 1st time was at a quarry. I didn’t get high that time. The 2nd was with 2 other kids. When we smoked in a nature park, it was nice, I got high and then we went into my car where we listened to Radiohead while we watched all the snow come down. It was delightful. Then I split 1/8th of an ounce of weed with a friend at his house so that we could smoke together and not have to pay a lot. The second time I did it with in the nature park again. It was very nice and as we ate we listened to music and talked (both times we waited for the high to wear off before we left although I definitely felt guilty.) the third time was in our garage while I was by myself, and the 4th time I was in our bathroom. The 5th time was in the nature park (cause nobody will catch you) I had a terrible high. I basically had the flu for 3 hours. It was so terrible. I smoked and then I drove to school somewhat high because I thought it would be fun to go to art club buzzed. Bad idea. So, I go into the swim team meet because I was early to art club. I was high and I felt like an idiot because though I was trying to compose myself, I still felt like I was wobbly and retarded. Then I sat down next to my friend Alyssa who was there, and then I was sitting there in the intensity of the high. It wasn’t a good feeling either. My entire being was high and it didn’t feel right at all. It wasn’t a feeling of relaxation like you’re flying in the air on a warm, clear summers night, it was like everyone in the stands was screaming at me without making understandable words. It felt as though the waves and splashes that the swimmers made were slamming against my head all amped up and all. It was bad. I didn’t have anything to eat and I was hungry to begin with and when you’re high, you crave anything edible. Also, my heart was thumping so fast I though I was going to have a heart attack. It made me think that I was going to die and then when the people found my body in the snow, it would be 415 degrees farenheight like those kids who try for the first time and die like that. As a result of the heat/ heart/ loud noise/ nausea. I left and told Alyssa that I was going to go get a drink. I couldn’t take a drink. I was too sea sick because when I moved the position of my head, it felt like my head was a boat being thrown about from side to side In a very choppy ocean. My head was the boat in "The Perfect Storm". I took a step outside. Actually, more like I limbered out. I took a seat on the wet sidewalk and just concentrating on my breathing. I was paranoid and probably correct that I was forgetting to breathe. I wasn’t only doing that for purposes of filling your lungs with oxygen, but I was trying to slow down my heart rate. Then after moving to the back metal stairs 50 feet away near the cafeteria from paranoia of someone knowing that I was stoned, I went back inside and took a drink. Then I went back to Alyssa in the stands of the swim meet. As I was there sitting there with my hands clawing my scalp trying to concentrate on breathing and not seeming stoned, I was thinking about my nice straight edge friends down there doing their body’s a service be competing and getting exercise and I’m up here wondering why on earth I was doing this to myself. I was sick, I walked down the stairs with Alyssa and then I walked straight into the bathroom. I was going to throw up. As I gagged on the first of what seemed like 20, I missed the toilet and all that puke went on the wall and floor of the stall. Luckily for me, I had the big stall that was made for handicapped people. After I was done gagging, I cleaned up that disgusting pink and orange throw up, I sat on the toilet with all my clothes on. All that went on in my head was “why am I such an idiot? How can I do this to myself and my sweet mother who is at home dealing with all her grief and she’s probably buying me Christmas presents (which I guess you were). I also practically fell asleep on the toilet while I was thinking all the crazy random bad thoughts that came into my head in the hour and a half of me sitting on the toilet before the next wave of dry heaves came to. After flushing and composing myself I decided that I was a little better and that I was going to go to art club. Art club started at 6:30, it was like 7:15 when I showed up. Everyone was all scattered around working on whatever and all the teachers were downstairs nicely shrink-wrapping my art pieces because I’m such a good kid and they love me… right. I go to a heating vent and take off my shoes and socks in order to warm my feet. 7 of my 10 toes were whitish yellow. I thought they were . They felt numb but I’ve had numb toes before and they were fine. It took literally 20 minutes to get a pinkish red color into them. That was scary. Then after 20 minutes more of just wandering around feeling like a waste product I decided to go home.
So basically im never going to smoke weed again. I dont think that its worth all the deceit that I have to go through just to get a 2 hour high.
today (the day after) my big toe hurts alot under the toenail and i wonder if this is due to the lack of circulation in them for that time or what, but i was hoping this wouldn't be the case.
Also I was smoking clove cigarettes befor I smoked the dank. could that have anything to do with it? I only had like 1 and a half ciggs.
write back anyone with a comment

 

tobacco makes me naushus alot...


but u may have smoked too much. my friend who smoked for the first time with me had a fair amount, and ended up puking, but he felt fine right after. And the pain in ur big toe, i wouldnt worry about it. Weed could not have caused that, as far as i know, and i like to think i know a fair amount about it.

And you have to deal with your guilt whichever way works. If that means stopping smoking, go ahead. but realize that what ur doing, while looked down upon, isn't that bad. And you can balance an athletic life and a smoking one. I play 3 sports and smoke a few times a week.

 

It could be an ingrown toenail. I used to get those a lot. Hurts like a bitch. Clove cigarettes probably had something to do with it as well. Not sure what you were talking about with you dead in the snow at 415 degrees like other kids who try it for the first time. I really hope that isn't something you heard as an effect of marijuana.

 

you just discribed a panic attack like the definishion of a panic attack, confusion, thinking your dieing, raped heart rate, feet get cold (when you have a panic attack the blood flow stays closer to the heart and brain leaving feet and hands cold) nausea,thoughts of regrate why me am i going insane whats happening bascily random fast thoughts, thinking your throat is closing up or thinking your not breathing properly are very common with panic attacks, that feeling like something is VERY wronge, you feel it through your whole body, it was just a panic attack you where in no danger at all, i have had ALOT of panic attacks and what you just discribed is one, i would smoke again to see what happens just relaxe and know your fine even if you do have another panic attack nothing bad will hapen so if you do have another chill nothing will happen to you, its realy not a big deal at all panic attack are very common and i dont not know any adult(panic attacks happen to everyone but at differnt times most experience them later in life) that hasnt had one in there whole life, i have delt with a panic disorder and still am i smoke to stop panic attacks. alot of people dont even know what a panic attack is and when they have them when they smoke weed they freak out and say they will never smoke again alot of people dont understand its very basic instinct you something is wronge the body goes into fight of flight responce its suppose to happen so dont worry.

 

sounds like a panic attack to me....maybe it jsut wasnt your day to kick back and get high. i never like to smoke when i have stuff on my mind that worries me( i get drunk then!lol) i only like to smoke if im in a happy, relaxed mood.

 

Dude you can't call that a bad trip, you dont know the first thing about a bad trip until uve actually had one. i mean panic attacks are bad, an old friend of mine used to get them, but its not a bad trip. a trip is somthing you get off of hardcore psycedelics (sp?) like mushrooms and acid. I was at a 311 concert once and somone gave me a FREE joint. i was thinking hell fuckin yea free weed but wut i diddnt know is that there was lsd on the tip of it and i was in for the most fucked up night of my life. so everything is goin good until papa roach gets on stage and the lead singer is a fuckin gargoyle and he's tryin to fuckin eat me. That is a bad trip man and i have plenty of other stories. the point is even though id never do acid again (but only cuz i dont like synthetic drugs) iv'e had bad trips on mushrooms twice and i still eat them when ever they come around. im just sayin man dont completley rule out natures greatest plant just because you had one bad expirience. because ill gaurentee (sp?) you that you will enjoy being stoned 99.9 percent of the time.

 

jesus man.

Weed should only be used in situations where your gonna be comfortable being high, or at least able to deal with it. This is the case ESPECIALLY if your a new smoker. Early highs are fucking wild, they get more eased and controllable as you gain expirience with the drug. Its also extremely common to get paranoid when your new to it. I still occasionally imagine sounds and shit. You need to be able to tell yourself what's real, and what the paranoids are telling you is real.

and marijuana has never killed anyone.

I suggest you try it again, in a more relaxed situation (NOT before going to some school related event) with a friend. And don't worry so much, you're not gonna die. Don't do it in a situation where youre stressed, rushed, or any of that shit. Take it easy

 

maybe u should skip art and go to english to learn some punctuation

seriously, i stopped reading that story like 3 sentance in because i couldnt take it.

 

it sounds like your paranoia was too extreme to handle, which caused the panic attack. if you decide to smoke again (i know you said you were'nt planning on it), wait until you have a few hours away from stressful situations. don't let this one experience turn you off to cannabis; your other experiences were in less stressful places so you enjoyed them. lately i've been getting really paranoid when i've smoked out my window for some reason, but when it gets bad i just try to think rationally about the situation and i realize all the precautions i've taken and feel much better. good luck!

 

yeah... since you can smoke LSD *complete sarcasm*

 

ahah wtf are you talking about like trippin billie said you cant smoke acid, plus i dont think acid would make you see a gagoyle that tryed to eat you um that seems a littile well like bullshit

 

i think what was meant was that there was Acid on the tip that you put in your mouth. And he said he thought the singer of Papa Roach was a gargoyle trying to eat him. Dont doubt the man, people see all sorts of crazy shit on acid. Not that i know from expirience, but ive heard. and what the hell does he have to gain by lying?

 

Yeah, it was probably acid on the roach of the joint. You can't smoke LSD, but you can sure as hell lick it.

 

A panic attack from weed happens to some people, not me though, I never had that (not even when I just started).
But when you're just starting and remember all the loose times to try smoking; then its not a good idea to go to wrong places when smoking it.
Probably if you try again you'd be fine.
I, and most of my friends, NEVER had a bad experience with it.

Also, like other people said, of weed you don't get a 'bad trip', you freak out, but its not a bad trip. Trips are from like, mushrooms and acid and stuff and thén when going bad, its A LOT worse (I had it on mushrooms).

 

Dude learn how to fuckin read man i said it was on the fuckin tip. meaning that it was put in my mouth. and wtf dude i've heard trip stories of people who fuckin thought they were a fuckin glass of orange juice, and people who saw dead little girls trying to steal their wallet and shit, anything is possible to see on acid that is why alot of people love it man. Even if it was bullshit though i still got my point across so who the fuck cares. but honestly dude plz don't reply to my shit anymore unless you read through what i said thoroughly.

 

I really doubt acid can commonly create this kind of hallucinations. Maybe only in psychotic people....




Never heard of anyone seeing this kind of stuff on lsd.

 

Man; do you lick a tip? Like smoking isn't LICKING, right?

 

Interesting. I bet thats because in your country you arent fed all the BS we were growing up, you dont get arrested for it, and it is overall tolerated. It's really not surprising to me that so many people get paranoid while high in the US.

 

another answer to the threadstarter....some people just plain dont like weed. i know a chick who was actually allergic, she would throw up for 4 hours if she took a hit...no lie. my girlfriends mom doesnt like it either, she said she doesnt like the lazy, paranoid feelings she gets when she smokes.

 

You put the joint to your lips to smoke it. If there is LSD on the end of a joint that touches your mouth, the LSD is going to be absorbed into your system. You don't have to put the whole joint in your mouth and chew it up and make out with it for you to taste it. Ever smoked a blunt or flavored papers? You don't sit there and lick the whole thing, yet you still get the flavor of the wrapping.