i dont know if it's the ecstasy i took the other day. but life is spirling down into a deep deep void. My friend is supose to meet up with me, but her phone has been on the busy tone for hours now. I'm sure she's talking to her bf from poland. ugh why am i so easily disgusted by all things sweet? I must be bitter. Life bites. and my insecurities dont allow me to express myself fully, here i am downing my emotions until i choke. or just fall into a fit of depression which i figure has already begun to take effect. BItches love me cause they know that i can fuck> i"m in a meaningless relationship all we do is fuck< not even kissing anymore and why doesn"t the period on my keyboard work?!!?! anymore> isn"t that sad? well i hate it i should get myself out of this but you know how hard that is on my hormonal drive? what a conflict desire vs self respect desire has such a hold on me too because im an impulsive dork birthdays are useless> they"re days that inflate your hopes I RULE
happy birthday though, perhaps it would be happier if you dont expect anything more than going out with your friends and having a good time
Happy Birthday, stay away from ecstasy, that stuff is bullshit. Makes you feel very down afterwards....makes you have a false love for everyone while you are on it, and then a dark emptiness when you come off.
Hmm... Happy birthday. Mine was last Sunday and I didn't even get any cake! I spent the day by myself following a solo camping/kayaking trip. It was relaxing and peaceful. maybe you should stop fu<king so often if it's not what you really want.
i spent my birthday fucking, puking, not being able to walk from the sore legness, and completely hungover. this was one of my better birthdays. i've gotten dumped on one of my birthdays. nobody ever calls me on my birthday... really, it's a day invented to make you miserable. become a jehovahs witness and dont believe in them, thats what my dumbass dad did. peace and love, nikki lou
Just wait until you're my age and then you'll know the true meaning of "birthday discontent"... or "losing count" at least
Mine was in July and this girl i'm friends with has the same birthday (albeit a year younger) so we rented a big campsite at the lake and threw a massive shaker. and drank a giant bottle of whiskey together. and puked together. growing older is all in your mind.
Stop... Take a break,..eat good food,..drink water,..take healthy vitamins. Focus on yourself and what you want. Free your mind and your ass WILL follow.
