Bye for now

I need to stop posting on here because I am writting things without thinking that are affecting my personal relationships.
I will be back when I think I am in a place where I can control myself...if that point ever comes. So as for now goodbye and thank you for all of the moments of bordem and angst this forum diminished.
I am more thank happy to talk on myspace.
HUGS

 

email me

hugs

 

I will HUGS

 

be good.

 

I'll talk to you on that other place.

 

Talk to you on myspace.

I try to be careful what I post on here too most of the time. You never know who will be reading it.

 

i post pretty much the same stuff, except i'm more open in other areas. but this is my personal space and that makes all the difference. dave knows it. rants in the heat of emotion that are not meant to be heard are a valid way to deal, since you can go back, read what you wrote, feel like an ass and make sure it's never said in person.

 

You'll be missed, hope to see you again in the near future!

 

Good Luck Miss Bella

 

It sounds like your boyfriend or whatever is controlling as fuck.

Supression --> repression --> depression

 

pfft. hardly. he also posts here and when someone is ticked off and ranting here, that can cause hurt feelings that were never intended.

 

That's quite an accusation to draw out of very little knowledge of the situation.

 

Yeah it is, but Ive seen enough posts to make it.

Plus Ive been playing on the jump to conclusions mat.

 

I'm sure if Daniel posted here, too, we'd have some definite problems in our relationship as well. Granted, this is where I come to vent, bitch, cry, and ask for advice, so, a lot of times I'm pissed at him when I'm venting, lol. He's definitely the least controlling guy I've ever met, it's just pretty understandable that he might get offended that I'm coming to you guys before him. I completely understand where Bella's coming from and hope they work it all out.

 

Thats not unreasonable Ramona.. I didnt know this was about things like that bc I didn't read those posts apparently. So if thats the case I retract that aspect of my comment.

But Im still calling a spade a spade, and first of all she is not just no longer venting on here but leaving entirely. The one post I read from her boyfriend was something about her moving to where he lives, and the one thing he said in it was something like "there will be no ____". probably in a joking context but with a serious undertone. And my impression of her on here isnt far from a battered woman, she seems excessively concerned about what she says. I saw her mention the fact she went from san diego with social support, to isolation in the desert and being dependent on some dude she met on the internet.

I could be wrong but I definitely picked up that vibe. And I think I'm pretty good at spotting that, I had to endure that bullshit from guys my mom dated.

 

he can't move because he's stationed there. she wasn't having the sort of life she wanted for herself in san diego and chose to start anew. in addition to that, lyns, like most of us, had a bad few days. adjusting to a new life, new job, new situation and everything else is going to take time for her. she felt what she did was wrong, so she's taking a hiatus to iron out. i think it's a proactive and strong approach that i think would ultimately help a great deal. she needs to focus on her new life and making new friends and getting settled in. we kinda became a crutch for her during her transition, but the outlet here is a group of shared friends. it's hurtful to her fiance and she's going to focus on them for now.

 

That makes sense, I just got a completely different impression. But Im basically cynical so that figures. I apologize for any false or out of place accusations.

But, if I'm right I can tell you all I told you so and to kiss my ass.
And you'll have to get me drunk

 

getting people drunk is a matter of course. naturally it will happen. but if you are right and you gloat, i can't promise to protect you from sharpie markers and embarassing photos of teabagging.

 

Haha its good to know drunken debauchery is a natural process for others too.

But I never pass out with my shoes on, and i shall strike down all teabags placed before me!

 

ever??? i dont believe you!