can anyone explain please? :S

Hi everyone,

I'll start from the begging. I am a 24yo male and I have just finished from a very bad 3 year relationship with violance and I have a little girl from it too.

I don't know whether it was just the girl I was with but I have no attraction towards real women/girls anymore.

What has taken my fancy is transexuals/ladyboys though and I can't explain it?

Well maybe in away I can, whilst with my ex partner we thought it would be fun to dress me up as a girl one night in platform heels, mini-skirt and tights. I had no idea how much I would enjoy it or love it! Then it became very very addictive.

Then came along anal and I love that too especially if there was illeagal substances involved, not that often though but it made it 100 times better.

What am I going through? Has anyone been in the same position?

The thought of having a ladyboy as a partner sounds good, or a transexual without the op. I like the thought of a real penis to suck and get penatration from but yet normal lads just don't do it for me. I think maybe a cross dressing very feminine/girly lad would suit me because I would understand there thinking having done it myself.

Does this mean I am gay, bi or straight tho? Or am I the one who should be a girl? Should I have been born a female and become lesbian with transexuals? Or would a transexual even be intrested in me if they are going the whole way with the op?

I would never have the balls to go out dressed as a girl in public but I would visit transgender bars etc...

It's really starting to mess with my head hence why I have joined up for some help on this confusing matter.

What gender would look at me and think I am attractive for my ways?

Please feel free to ask me any personal questions and I will answer them honestly. Hopefully someone can help.

Thank you

PS I am not the slightest bit camp and none of my friends would ever have a clue this is what I am going through.

 

this one is way out of my league but take care of the kid...step up and be a father regardless of the out come of your other questions

 

Yes exactly, I've been there from day one and there is no way i'm giving up on her. I'm fighting to see her at the moment, it doesn't help she is 300 miles away with her mum though

Thanks for the input.

 

gender identity and sexual orentation are not related! buy some feminine clothing, get dressed and go to your local gay bar. If thats too extreem, just tell your next gf or bf about your desires on the first date. most people don't care as long as you are honest with them and yourself.