Ego Swell. Farewell to HF?

I'm not sure how to describe this, but I have not tripped in probably 7-8 months and I feel better than ever. I have utilized a lot of information from my trips to get to where I am at now, mentally, and I have maintained a curious, open and dialog-filled relationship with my self and I can attribute this to my experimentation with psychedelic drugs.



I feel like the present ego, I, can relate to who I have been and who I will be in the future like no other point in my life. (There is obviously a disconnect, but I feel as if I can embrace my past and the possibilities of the future into my present self)

It feels really great, and for the first time in my life I can say I don't feel depressed. It is like some huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders and life is existing purely for me to reap the rewards.

(^^ Huge, I realized this when I got worked up trippin over this girl and I just let my mind wander into negativity and found myself thinking of suicide - I know, it is really stupid about a girl, but I have suffered throughout my adolescence with these thoughts and to so suddenly see the menial thought pattern that is surrounded by suicide is a pretty significant breakthrough)

Combine this with a faith to do and be good (not a religion, I just believe in 'being' and the abstract of love) and I feel like it is almost my destiny to do something awesomely good. :2thumbsup:



In writing this, I also feel like this is almost a good-bye to the hipforums. This is where I really got into other ways of thinking and I have developed my own personal taste of reality with a lot of really excellent advice and accounts of other people's experiences.

It's just time now to step away from the well of knowledge, stories and engaging thought and put it all into practice for real for real.


I have a pretty habitual personality when it comes to social outlets of consciousness, so this may be difficult. But then again I have to explore other ways of getting the message out
(Maybe I'll cause mayhem and get banned like the old days)

I want to thank everyone who has ever spoken with me on here - it may have had a bigger impact on who I am than some of you may think.

:daisy: ✪ Right on ✪ :daisy:

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Well,drop in when you can and let us know how you're doin'. Happy trails-------

 

Sounds like a cool place to be. Peace.

 

At The Age Of 20 You Have A Long Life Ahead Of You....

I Wish You All The Best For The Future....



Cheers Glen.

 

Dont leave me!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

Have fun man...

 

wow that's great man. really warming.

wish you the best. god is love.

 

Wish you the best of luck man! Have a wonderful life!

 

Happy trails man good luck

 

I did the same thing - dropped out, then dropped out of that and applied the revelations to life and work. That was a 40 year trip, and now here I am, posting on a psychedelics thread. Happy trails.

 

I hope you understand that no matter you status in life or your sense of achievement, your life remains as series of sensations some of which you may call pleasant and some not so.

 

i absolutely do understand that. i understand the concept of that, at least.

i have felt, for the first time, a full complete "wave" cycle of the ups and downs. I'm on the up swing of another wave, and it feels like it's gonna be a big one . now I hope that the trough of the wave (when/if it comes again) is not matched by the magnitude of the crest.

I don't really know where it will take me, but I want to catch air and start flying when I hit the top.

Anyways, it is surprising to see some of the responses here, and it is encouraging too. Thank you all for the positive vibes, I truly can feel them. For real.

 

Good Luck PurpBy.

 

Good luck Purp ol' boy.


..I know you'll be back like the rest of us, though.

 

Hope you discover your purpose

Loves

 

Good luck Mate!!

Was nice to see and meet for the brief time

 

Well right on, seems like your use, has made a positive impact on your life....some of the worlds most powerful tools

 

he'll be back ;p

 

I hope that if you ever feel knocked off course you can come back to this moment and thread the feeling back into your reality. It is a powerful place to be, and you(and everyone) deserve to be in this space of buoyancy. Allz else I can say is right on...I love that you've written and shared your peace here.

 

See you around man. We come and we go.