I was meditating earlier, looking at myself from an outside perspective. I was able to single out my ego, and observed it as a voice inside my head. Really just a particular train of thoughts that keeps me attached to what I call my "self". As I went deeper into the meditation I realized that it's simply the understanding of, and true belief in oneness that is the direct result in dissolution of the ego. This may be obvious to some, but for me it was a profound realization. I had always assumed that the ego dissolution I experience on lsd was a product of some complicated neurochemistry, but I see it much more clearly now, and the ego loss really just seems to be a side effect now. This realization has changed me, I feel closer to nirvana. anyone else feel similarly or have contrasting opinions? much love!
the ego is the rational side of your conscious. The voice that tells you not to jump off a bridge or do something stupid. When you trip a psychedelic, your ego is suppressed, its still there, but it gets pushed away by a more ancient and delicate voice, the ID. The Id is the instinctive sexual beast which comes out when you dream and when you take a psychedelic. There are three voices one person has. Ego, Id, and Spirit. Your spirit is always with you, Ego is with you when your sober, and Id when you dream and are tripping. A psychedelic drug is like a reboot to your brain, by clearing out all the useless information and it will install a new operating system in place of your culture. When you trip, your culture, your operating system is being reformated leaving your spirit and your Id to have some quality time together.
I think Ego is the string that binds all our moments together. But the moments are trully bound simply in their own way, and when we tie up our moments with ego, we end up implanting extra features to our bundle of moments - the features inherent in the string we use. moments need no string to bind them, it is there for us to be able to hold onto them. but in doing so we bastardise the moment a bit. Taking LSD disrupts the binding process and so our experiences are bound not by a structure of our ego but by a sensory or emotional progression. The thing to remember is, however, that the state while on psychedelics is always present but when sober or compulsively obsessed with some thought pattern, the psychedelic state it is chopped up and shrunk and faded to the point where it is just below our cognitive threshold, held down by a web of ego-threads which are used by our mind to keep composed, and aware of other people's assumptions. The true glue of the universe - that which binds mental states, is always present. but we are usually too caught up in the mental states that bind the universe to properly experience the smallest changes in the universe.
If the ego is always suppressed, yet still there...I would recommend increasing the dose. The point for me was that the destruction of my ego could be attained simply by knowing and believing 100% in the ultimate oneness of the universe. It is only the constant assumption that I differ from the rest of the universe that keeps my ego intact. making this connection has opened my mind, I am feeling wonderful!
