I want to rise above a level of turning each other away. I think sometimes our interactions are so far below standard that it prevents someone from understanding life. Transactional here just means at interactive points in life - the cashier, the call center, intersections, and all the places where we encounter each other. Is it that I 'don't like people'? Not quite. I do like people, but sometimes I'm concerned. Are the interactions weighing me down? How so? If there is something that isn't meeting expectation, some of that is normal. Other parts merit correction. I think we are capable of improving too. If this reads as me not liking you, or in general me not liking people, I would ask for re-evaluation. In general the emotional eligibility we seek is available. It doesn't take more than a smile or whatever interaction and you or I or anyone are motivated and functional. But when we're emotionally ineligible based on the way we interact? That is dysfunctional. It generates desire for improvement, and when that is one sided, I'm a cynic or a pessimist complaining all the time. This is in my life and I wish so much that it weren't. Too many intervallic transactions leave so much to be desired that I'm left wondering what I can do to prevent my life from feeling like a nightmare unending. How do I stop the nightmare? Well, if you talk to anyone about it "that's life" is basically all you hear; "you can only control yourself". That is not adequate. What can we do together to improve?
I don't know. Probably. I guess I overanalyze because it's too much of the 'bad emotional eligibility' too many times at what seems like every single opportunity.
What gets me when it come to a transactional emotional exchange like when addressing the cashier, the call center, or even friends and family, is how we tend to lie about our emotional or physical well being. It goes like this: "Hi! How are you?" Then the lie is said. "Oh, hi! I'm fine and you?" This is followed by another lie. "Oh, I'm fine. Thank you." When in reality you are in pain, depressed, pissed, or generally NOT FUCKING FINE! But if you tell the truth to those around you it is not accepted well. No matter how much people say they care about their fellow man, they really don't give a shit.
