I just read the post about dealing with fear, and I realized I have been dealing with my fears in an unhealthy way. By avoiding them. But, it's easy to avoid my two biggest fears.. because they are so fucking strange. And I wish I was kidding when I tell you what they are but unfortunately I am not. I am deathly afraid of whales and eels. To the point that if I see one on TV or a picture of one I have to talk myself out of having an anxiety attack. I am not positive on the cause of these fears. Something in a movie made me scared of whales, and I can't even type what it is or I'll upset myself. As for the eels, I don't have the slightest clue. All I know is I cannot handle them. If I see an eel or a whale in person, say, at an aquarium I would have a very severe panic attack. I am to the point where I wouldn't ever go to an aquarium because of how severe my fear is. I feel so weird and silly because of this. I've had some horrid things happen to me.. I have been attacked by someone, and I am literally more scared of a freaking thing I will most likely never see then by something awful that actually happened. Why do you think this is? Do you have any really strange fears? Oh.. and it's okay to laugh.. I know I'm totally strange for feeling this way!
not strange at all.. i'm not sure how to help you out.. i can tell you what i do myself. i'd imagine the wildest thing that could possible happen. for instance .. i have horrible social anxiety.. so i imagine being in public and freaking out.. running in circles screaming something like "AAAHHH!! AAAHHH!! I'M FREAKING OUT!!" and then getting on the floor and "walking" in circles going "whoop whoop whoop whoop" ... and it makes me relax some know this is not going to happen at all. maybe learn something about these animals? i could tell you what i know, but i don't wanna unless i have your permission to share my knowledge about them.
i have fear of ivs because i for some unknown reason am conviced that they are going to drain out all of my blood...im not really afraid when blood is actually being taken because it is not for that long but if they put in an iv i hav to be sedated...i realize this is completely fucking retarded but i cant help it...especially if its in a hand vein...i just hate hand veins...i fell like it is so stupid because i dont mind blood or guts or whatever but ivs in hands make me panic... i also dont like birds really but im not terrified i just would rather not touch one
I have 4 major irrational phobias. And one of these fears effects me a lot worse than the others. I accidentally found a way to help myself with these phobias. For me the help is LSD. A good dose of LSD takes away my ego, it takes away my fears. I was forced to confront my biggest phobia while I was on LSD several times. And I had no fear or anxiety, in fact I actually enjoyed being around and seeing my phobia. What I learned from my encounters on these trips is I don't have to be afraid because these fears are only a manifestation of my ego. And I can can control my ego. Although I still have my phobias I am am now able to work with my mind to guide my self away from fear or anxiety. I don't think it is necessary to mention what my phobias are.
sadly, you are so wrong. LSD is not helping you in any way. truth, free of hippie romance is painful.
