Getting old

Are you afraid of getting "old"? Very much so? A moderate amount? Just a tiny bit? Not at all? And what age do you consider "scary" or "old"?

In just the past year I've started to feel...well, not OLD- espiecially because I've been excercising more and eating better then I have in years so I'm actually FEELING younger- but when I look at my life- maybe look at people who are much younger then me and completed their degrees and already have good careers that I could not do as fast, mostly for money reasons... It makes me feel time is ticking all the sudden. And also my desire to have a child (children) and a family- that is going off.... in major ways.... I know I'm still YOUNG.... but this past year a new sense of time and reality have set in for me.

Am I afraid of getting old? No. That doesn't scare me in the least. I can't wait til I'm an old woman with lots of knowlege and wisdom that can sit back and do and say what I want because I made my life and I deserve it... but what does scare me is how time is going faster and faster...and I'd hate in another five or ten years to still be wishing I had accomplished my goals and haven't done so.... I feel there is a limit to what you can do in life and you have to do it when you can because of time limits..blah...

 

not really. I am just afraid of getting fat.

 

Oh my goodness, this is crazy. I've been having some issues with feeling "old" lately. Well not feeling really, I mean, I feel much younger than my age, but I think I'm starting to look it more lately. Not in my style of dress, but physically, my face just looks, I don't know, older. And it seemed to look that way more after I lost weight I noticed, which has been within the past 6 months or so.

I was looking at this picture of me holding my oldest son when he was about 1.5 years old, and I look so YOUNG. I said to my husband how I looked so pretty and young then, and he says, "you don't look any less pretty now!" I said what about the young part?! Anyway, that's me at almost 23 years old. I don't know, I guess it's not that much different, but still, my skin just looked so young and I had more of a look of innocence to me. Now I'm all seasoned and bitchy looking.



Anyway, yes, I'm terrified of getting old. But the only other option isn't one I'd like at all, so I guess I'm stuck, huh?

 

Awwww.... you look cute then and now. And you look a TAD bit older because..well, you ARE a tad bit older. Hehe. Man... when I look at pictures of myself from when 10 years ago I looked a lot younger with this glowing, rosey innocence and a huge, untainted grin and perfect skin. I don't think I look bad now but I don't look like THAT anymore....

Btw... wow! You are soooo pretty!


Oh..funny I just read the innocent comment and that's what I meant by my "untainted" comment. Yeah... um, I dunno. Time just seems to be going so much faster. I'm afraid it could just slip away.

-So you are terrified of getting old? What age would you consider particularly scary to be?

 

Awww, thankyou Lucky. *blushes*

I feel like my look is "harder" now, like I looked at the world with such a different point of view then, much more innocence, and life has hardened me a bit. I suppose that's normal, I mean, I can't expect to look like I did years back. But to me, it seemed more sudden, like I just really noticed it more recently.

I'm really getting nervous about approaching 30. My husband had a rough time when he turned 30. Not that I think it's old by any means, it's just...wow, it really sinks in, makes me think of how old my parents are getting, that type of thing.

 

Yeah... my husband will be thirty next month and my mom will soon be fifty. Both weird numbers... none old but kinda transitional I suppose.

 

That's exactly how I feel too. I'm not scared of getting old as such, but the fact that time just seems to be flying by so fast freaks me out a lot. I don't wanna suddenly have to realize that I'm 43 and haven't really done anything with my life. That's what scares me the most. And the older you get the faster time seems to go... and I'm only 22!! I remember how as a kid summer holidays seemed to last foreeeeverrrrr... and now it's like heyit'schristmasoooyaysummerohshitit'schristmasagain and... yeah. I don't like time.

 

Haha...EXACTLY how I feel kozmic. Exactly. I'm afraid of more time slipping by and thinking "why didn't I do this or that sooner?" Blah.

 

The worst year I had for feeling like I was getting old was 29. Thirty was coming quick. After that it's par for the course. I do admit I have been a bit frustrated with the little things like not being able to eat all the Ben and Jerry's and drink all the Guinness I want without it showing around the waist, and not being able to read without glasses.

 

I totally agree with the time going faster. I swear, when I was a kid, it just seemed to go sooo slow. Now, it's just going by at lightening speed, and that's what terrifies me. I have no control over it. I can't stop it. My parents are getting older, I'm getting older, my kids...and I just wish I could go back to when time seemed to go on forever. Now every day, every week, every month, and every year just fly by before you know it. Faster and faster.

 

One time while on acid, I felt myself grow rapidly and, my jaw fell of and I couldnt put it back on. True story, heavy dose. So to this day, I have a fear of my jaw falling off, hopefully that doesnt become a reality. Sort of like that one scene in Beetlejuice......

 

Oooh, that's really some freaky stuff RELAYER!

 

I used to have episodes where time sped up like crazy around me. Everything started moving so fast like in fast forward and I just wanted to yell STOP! Don't know of anyone else who have had these type experiences.

 

haha I know isnt it?! and, I always feel funny when you read my posts about my past drug use haha, since we always talk about our babies. Oh well, at least Im on the path of changing my ways now

 

In a society that worships youth, at 32, I’m old news,

And yet I feel strong, confident, youthful, and dynamic



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I often wish I had the ability to stop time, or at least slow it down. Wouldn't that be nice?

 

Hey, I'm not one to judge. I wasn't always lily white myself. Besides, you're a good father.

 

Aw thanks I try to be lol. Your the best HCM

 

when my dad turned 50 last december, i started to feel a bit old and i'm really close to be 22, a few weeks out...day after easter...but when he turned 50, it was like damn, i'm almost half way there. haha

i know i joke about being old and having a hoveround...i did that back in high school and had a cane and walked really slowly to classes haha...but i'm just joking for the most part...my body is young, not as young as it used to be, but its still young and i can recover from beating it up pretty quickly.

i've done a lot...traveling wise - biked across the country, service trip to the island of Dominica for 1 month...i've gone through 4 years at this school, a school many people wouldn't dream of doing...all these things add perspective to life, but i want to do so much more and i will.

limits, i don't believe in them...the only limits you have are the ones you place on yourself.

theres parts of me that feel a bit old, but on the other side, i'm quite young at heart. i'm not afraid, as long as i keep the child in me, then i'll be happy and grow old and not be grumpy. i see so many people at this school pissed off and grumpy for no damn reason....its sad, i just walk around with a smile

*i started rambling haha

 

I've noticed that too, time recently seems to have been speeded up :leaving:



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