People always say to find out who you are or how to fix yourself or what you want, etc, you just have to look deep inside yourself "go deeper" they say. Yeah well, what if you don't know how? What if you hit a wall and you can't get past it and you're sick of always asking questions and instead of answers you only find more questions???? I know alot of people answer this question with "meditation", but i can't find the commitment...and my mind never stops. people are always saying "you think too much" and so on. Damn, i know it, i dont need to be told it. i just want to stop it, uno? So how do you go deeper? is there some truthful question i need to answer truthfully...i can write pages and pages of crap and still feel like im flowing over, or i'll be so still that i have forgotten to breathe and my head is hurting...oneday i feel like i'm a good person and worth being on the planet and then the next moment i am the worst person in the world... I dont even know how to be sociably acceptable...and the worst part is people can see it written all over me, i can't even hide it properly. so what do you guys think. there are some smart cookies here, u must have some ideas???
I know what you mean, like even when your'e with your friends do you ever just not know who you are, how to act, how to fit in. And you try to just sit amd figure things out but your mind won't shut up. Can you ever just not think, in my house it will take me hours to do like a math ditto because I can't think, I desperately need to just have quiet, like inner quiet. Just gotta get away from here
yes well something like that. i have never been known to be a shy person, but at uni i freeze and freak out...it feels like there are too many minds in one room, and when i'm alone i'm just constantly trying to unravel my mind and get to the number one - if that makes any sense...i have the study problem cos it's hard to switch off all the superfluous thoughts and concentrate on what needs to get done..and i change from minute to minute...i decide something and then change my mind...one moment i think im insane and the next i think i've got it straight and i know better. it's a war of the id and the superego in here.
You gotta slow your pace of life down. Your mind is on hyperdrive because YOU are on hypodrive. You have to find the commitment to meditate. Of course it's hard and you want to get up from the floor. Happens to me all the time, I start doubting it saying "this is dumb, it won't get me anywhere...." Well, you just have to say to yourself "well, thats my crazy monkey mind, the thing I'm trying to calm down." Why let it rule you like that? You go deeper by getting your mind to shut the hell up for a while. Meditation is the way my friend, sorry. Nothing good comes easy but it's always worth the effort. You know this is true from the way you ask the question: The last line is the most revealing.
