Im a loser. My life has not ammounted to anything. Over the past 18 years, i just walked a line, complacent, nothing remarkable. I crawled through school, friendless, alone and bored out of my goddamn mind. I considered suicide alot. I never did anything remarkable or interesting, nothing at all. No girlfriend, no adventure, worthless. Now im 18, sitting in community college, just like the previous years, alone. It needs to change, what can i do to not suck so much anymore? The life that is set before and is expected of me sucks, i see no happiness, and if my life does end up like that, then suicide wont seem so scary. I would like to just off myself, but i still cling to a sliver of hope, so what can i do? Ive considered hitchhiking, maybe going to a rainbow gathering, just getting out there. But my family sucks, and only gives me shit about it. so what should i do?
Believe in the power of positive thinking. Remember, no matter where you go, there you are. It's not your surroundings you have to change, it's your attitude. When I was younger I thought I lot about suicide. Tried it a few times. Eventually I decided I was sick of slicing myself up, and started to like myself. It probably sounds conceited, but I love myself now. I think I'm awesome. Just believe in yourself.
first of all, find something that you genuinely love to waste your time doing, because if your having fun then it cant be a waste of time if you don't like the path your lifes taking, then your the only one who can change it and trust me, the ability to do so is in all of us if you ever do have the chance, network with some hippies or people that are accepting/open minded in real life, they're awesome and they'll really help you believe in the beauty of positivity heck, if you just need someone to talk just pm your buddy crimsonsunset its an internet forum, but your a person, and i'm a person and i sincerely do care as do many people on HF =) have a great day buddy and don't let the negativity of the world break you
im no expert or anything but it sounds to me like you should just go out hitchhiking/backpacking going to festivals and what not. have as much fun as life can permit. dont let your families thoughts hold you back. do exactly what you want! give up material possessions if it is a boundary. being out on the road, or in the woods, either getting more in touch with yourself or others sounds like what you need. hell a rainbow family gathering could fix just about all those. you won't find such a multitude of amazing people many other places. and maybe on your travels you will meet a nice lady friend. just don't give up hope brother. there is someone out there for everyone, no matter your looks. there is also a lifestyle fit for anyone out there. you just need to break through the boundaries. I think you and i (im just assuming) are similar in a way because i cannot even picture myself getting a 9 to 5 job, 2 and a half kids and a white picket fence. The more i am part of it, the more absurd society seems. The core of mans spirit comes from new experiences! i need adventure and i find the only lifestyle im interested in is nomadic. i dont know if you like literature or anything but here are some very inspirational authors that you might like. Thoreau, Jack London, Tolstoy
Well, from my point of view, at 18, your life hasn't hardly begun yet. WAAAY too soon to conclude that it's worthless. What do you care about? What moves you? Makes you angry? Find your passion and pursue it. I know that sounds like stupid typical advice from another old person, but there's truth in it. If the environment concerns you, study and learn what you can do to improve it. If world poverty disturbs you, learn how you can help there. There is so much need in the world that we really can't afford to waste people who could be doing some good. Oh, and don't worry too much about what your family says. If they're your true family, they'll eventually come around and accept what you're doing. If not, find your true (not blood) family.
Find your passion and pursue it. You'll never get any better advice than that. Look at it from the other side ... if you don't do that, then my young friend you will get to be my age and I guarantee you will look back and say "why the hell didn't I do that?" ... whatever "that" is. Do not let opportunities pass, because one day opportunities will stop coming. I have known people who have done this. They've gotten to their 40's or 50's and realized they lived a "life of quiet desperation." Don't you do that. Find your passion and pursue it. No matter what anyone else tells you.
take a trip. if youre not happy where you are go somewhere else. just go somewhere you can do what you love and you will see that everything seems to turn out as it should. just dont worry and be happy.
