here is my personal mindfuck

once upon a time, i got high with my friends and they were speaking fucking weird as shit. it sounded so different. so i asked, why are you guys talking in like a three way. and they had no idea what i was talking about. the next day at school i realized everyone talked in this "code". its like, speaking your thoughts indirectly or some shit. and when i talked with my priciple about it she called the cops and i ended up having to visit the mental place for a year. anyways, now i have realized every american is taught to live the code. speak the code. but never speak of it. i am inclined to not talk, unless its about skating or straight talking about how i feel or something. and the weird thing is, i am considered insane for discovering america's core around which everything is revolved. well yeah, thats it. i cant speak without catching my mind thinking differently and i end up not knowing what im saying. i call it the game of perception. it involves our imagination and it is a way of thinking, but. it is programmed to our mind its not our natural selves. think modern, verse shaman caveman. you think you can control a caveman's mind? nuh uh. hell just copy you and end up controling you without even realizing it. same with cats dude. but there dumb and see themselves being copyed by you. which is you seeing them copy themselves. and well, you can see why cats are the way they are.

 

Roflmao

what the fuck are you talking about?

 

He probably was like fucking stoned..

 

That was totally great. Yeah I feel pretty much like that sometimes. It's easy to get lost in the knotty tangle but I usually subscribe myself a lil' bit of the ol' nature. 10min. 3 times a day will get ya feelin better lickety split! Just because it's fall and worse than watching the cycle die is watching it be reborn only to watch it do it again... far beyond when you can watch it anymore. Working at nothing. It's not a U. States problem. Its all of humanity. We've entered the vortex and theres no turning back. All hope is slowly leaking away beyond the event horizon. Woe are we who hold on in the last of time! For we will suffer the greatest burden; to know what was and is no longer and to know what could have been. Woe! OH WOOOOOEEEE!!!!!! Please remain calm. Your species has been turned down for further evolution. You will now be returned to the void. Existence is futile. Thank you for trying but you don't win the prize.

 

ur crazy... fucking crazy...

 

hehehe I know what you mean...But nothing to go crazy about.

I call it the game. Whad ya want thats how it works.

Its what it is. Let it go. Or you will return to the place. Horrible fool on the streets yellin at everybody.

Have you ever done lsd or shrooms??? You know , sometimes you can find multiple meanings to a sentence one said. But people dont speak in three way . Most will say what they think and you can interpret it in lots of ways. One time I started yelling at this girl, what a fuckin hoe you are and shit, because of one thing she said. Damn did I apologize the day after, I was completely off track ...This gets you into paranoia, which istn really cool in my opinion.

And its not because you notice you speak differently what you think of to adapt to the situation that everybody does. Youy are also playing the code no?

I see myself a little bit in what you say. I was well goin crazy with that. But now im feelin much better and I realize most of what I thought was kinda far from reality. Realized it was infact paranoia.

 

i get confused with people. cause im so new to all of this. i cant ever tell, if someone is trying to mean or if people dont like me or anything. yea, i try to get to know people on a deep level. but i would never think about fucking with someone.

and im not sure if i play the code. by that do you mean by how i adapt?

hmmm. honestly i think im just an observer. i dont think i play? and i dont think it runs me either? influences aside.

 

if i answered that with a yes would it make sense?

im just talking about perception here? if you dont know what im talking about dont say anything. its for the best. 8P

 

oh, i can play the game somewhat online with messages and shit, but im not the good. im a noob. lol. well, actually if i was playing, that last sentence would have sounded really lame wouldnt it?

 

I play the game. The trick is to be compleatly comfortable with who you are. After that your free to give any impression you like to other people. Deliberately loosing arguments you feel passionate about is a good test, especially when its with an enemy.

What ever power you take with it, there is still a choice with what to do with it.

The thing is even children play this game without even realising, through experience they can gain from situations they are familiar with and have gained from in the past. Thinking about it id say its pritty natural.

One thing to remember is that language is only a tool developed for communication through communication and therefore it is impossible to ever know how someone else feels.

 

this quote helped me so much dude, ty.

 

JesusChristPose, I think I see what you're saying, because smoking pot myself I've had an experience of deeper perception, where communication seems easier, and I felt connected to everyone in the room like I knew what they were thinking. I'm having trouble understanding EXACTLY what you mean, and I was wondering if pretty please you could send me a private message or email me (or you can just reply to this post, it doesn't matter) and explain what you're talking about in better detail, and let me know if I'm understanding you correctly. I don't think you're crazy, I think you're hella enlightened.
:spliff: Peace.

 

Welcome

 

well, whenever my buddy josh would get some weed i used to always be like, lets go smoke it with someone. i always like to get high with people and just talk about what was going on. but the thing is, ive i never really seemed to be on a deeper level of communication. i never thought, whoa he said that like he was on pot, and someone might be like, yep hes high.

but im not sure you dont understand about what i said. the game or code or whatever?
maybe you could ask a more specific question?

 

one of the reasons i dont like to have anything to do with the game is of how involved in the imagination it is. i dont really like anything to do with the imagination. i like to think its still pure. i only use it in sticky situations when im trippin on somehting other than weed, or maybe just really high on weed. so i can step into my imagination and just tell myself im imaging things. than im not there anymore. its a full proof wonder on how the imagination works with the realness of the mind.

 

wow, i dont know if i should have said all that, looking back i dont think it sounds right at all, especially about me being an observer of the game.
dont you hate it when you say somehting, and "game" just starts coming out of nowhere? its the feel of my conversations i guess, i always state my thoughts from the same perspective, but it always changes, especially when i said "hmmm, honestly i think im just an observer." didnt that seem really weird?

 

A more specific question... okay. Could you explain "the code" or "the game" to me in better detail? You were pretty vague...

 

Okay, I think I get what you mean, now. Like no one can ever really say what's on their mind because their imaginations get the best of them? Is that what you meant by the "game" coming out of nowhere and changing what you originally planned to say?
Did you mean your friends were better able to communicate while they were stoned? Or worse?

 

ok, when i first heard the code, thats all i thought it was, a code. i just thought people cleverly used there words and sentences to produce an affect with what they say. but one of the first things i learned from it was there's something about it that blocks one from enlightenment. and then, the thing that freaked me out was how all of society revolves around the code. but then i guess the idea of "the code" is in fact a code for something else. and i think its how we think. the last thing i said. thats the code. pls, pls, pls, pls, plsssssss dont say something stupid. i dont even know you but im puting so much faith into what you say next.

 

I've experienced that myself, but I thought it was something only I did. I'm kind of shy and I thought I was some kind of social retard because it was hard for me to say exactly what's on my mind.