before i start my sadness, how have you all been doing lately? i come by here every now and then but barely ever post anymore. i should change that on to the sad stuff... so my gf dumped me today...said she wanted some time to herself and wasnt in love with me anymore. im still in love with her so right now it feels like my hearts been ripped out of my chest. i really feel lost without here, i really didnt know what i was doing with my life and had no plans to figure any of that out until i started dating her, she gave my life direction and made me want to try ...so now im left with nothing. no gf, no apartment, no cat...im back at my dads house tonight and im gonna go pack up the rest of my stuff while shes at work tomorrow. i really wish she would try and work this out with me cause i know she really does love me but i guess some time apart will help her realize that. other than the things i really care about falling apart today ive been okay...i really enjoy my new job and im still working my old job on the weekends. havent been feeling that good the last couple days and not sleeping last night into working all day today plus having my heart broken doesnt really make me feel any better. was supposed to go with a buddy of mine to go see splintered sunlight (dead tribute band) tonight but i decided i wasnt really up for it considering everything that happened. sorry for the sad wall of text but everyone here always makes me feel better anyway...i got some bud earlier today and im gonna smoke it and hopefully cheer up a little bit
Howdy Dave It's been a while. Sorry to hear about you and your girlfriend. I definitely know how you feel. It gets easier though. Just smoke yourself retarded and be happy for a few hours at least:sifone:
im planning on doing just that...though it sucks being back at my dads i hate having to hide and being paranoid about getting caught lol i havent smoked at home in 2 years :/
not good haha...he almost caught me a few times when i used to live here and he wasnt happy but im almost positive that he knows i do it but just doesnt want to admit it to himself. i dont think he'd be happy if he caught me though, might give me a break considered everytyhing that happened today but i dont want to find out haha
lol That's probably smart. You never know though.....he may not really give a fuck, except he probably doesn't want you doing it at his house. The fact that you work two jobs and basically have your shit together, he not really give two shits if you smoke some weed:sifone:
Welcome back. Bummer about the g/f... the heart will heal. Remember, it's always 4:20 somewhere...:sifone:
nice and high now...not really feeling any better but its a nice distracting...just put on a dead show too thatll help
Hey Dave! Welcome back.. just smoke some weed and forget about it.. in time it'll pass and you'll move on.. :sifone:
Sorry about your GF Dave. But remember it's good that it hurts. It means you have a good heart. Something that is easily loved by many and capable of giving it back again in return. Just relax, smoke by yourself to keep yourself from being sad and smoke with close friends for fun. I was dumped a while ago, it broke my heart, but if I never threw myself into my close friendships, I would never have wound up with the loving friends I now have. I'm single now, but happier and all things considered more loved than I was in the relationship with her. Something I once thought impossible. Hope you're happier soon bro. I'm going outside to spark one for ya now dude.
haha so ive been talking to her a little bit and she told me a funny story. My dealer went drunk to the wawa my, now ex, gf manages and was yelling to her about how she made the biggest mistake. the dealer barely knew us besides little small talk we made when we'd pick up as to not look like we were buying drugs. i think its funny haha i had only even mentioned it to my dealer when she asked if my (ex)gf was in the car when i came in. she jokingly said she would beat her up for me but i didnt think she cared for real
im sorry to hear that dude. i just let go of my dick. just remember the hardest part is over. actually letting them go. just avoid getting drunk so you dont drunk call or txt. lol i was very proud of myself for not txting him while i was trippin on x today.
