I am going to kill myself.

For the past couple years atleast I have been depressed and it is getting progessively worse. I have withdrawn from all my friends. I have not recieved a phone call in mabye half a year. I became depressed for no appearent reason. People don't even try to understand when I tell them. The average response is either "If you kill yourself you go to hell" or "People who kill themselves are weak". I don't agree with or believe either of those statements. Its not that I don't want to believe in hell its just, nobody ever proved it exists. People who are depressed are not weak. Life is pointless.

 

Don't kill yourself. You have much to offer and receive from life.

 

Life is not pointless, my friend. Please, lets talk about some happy stuff together! *me hugs you and kisses your cheek* Heehee, be happy!

 

Ok, what do you want to talk about?

 

I'll tell you something that doesn't need a religious back up, you don't have the god given right to kill yourself. You don't deserve to choose when to die because obviously you didn't choose when to live! Life is a trip. It has its ups and downs, its all the perception you put it in and the people you are with.

You are too wrapped up in yourself to listen to people or to accept anything. Get over yourself and live life. Catch some sun, listen to some good music, get with some girlfriend and find yourself... C'mon man, theres plenty of room to grow.

 

So your calling me ignorant and selfish? I don't like music. I would have trouble getting into a relationship.

 

I am like how you feel off and on. I get in deep moods of depression because of lack of attention, love, friends, or many many other reasons. Killing yourself wont solve anything, you should know that you will die when your ready to, and that age is definitly not 15. The best is to fight through this stage of life until the next, anyway you can. Pick up a hobby, join a club, anything to keep you from commiting suicide, and finding something that will make you happy.

 

well i lvoe you! s dont kill yourself!

ok?

 

I am so sick of feeling like this.

 

Amanada you got to skip some grades? I wish I didn't have to waste so much time in school. Its all a waste up until highschool.

 

I just about killed myself a few months ago, and tried a couple times before that. No one has ever called me, I doubt anyone ever will.
What I needed was a huge change, which might be what you need. I dropped out of college, spent months without human contact, and am now preparing to set off into the world with nothing more than a tent and my wits, and who knows what life will bring.
Think about what you really want out of life, and you'll realize that it's probably not that hard to get.

 

well your gonna die just all by yerself before too long ....so take up shoplifting . vandalism . hiking ....piracy is a good job .....picpocket .....you dont have to put up with shit , and there are ways 'out' that arnt 6ft under .....

 

Whenever I start thinking about what I want in life I get too carried away.

 

I don't think anything is too carried away. For example, hslf a year ago, when I was in school, I couldn't imagine a life where I'd be travelling around the world, actually enjoying myself. And I can do a thing or two that most people wouldn't believe possible (If you want to know more, pm me, if I post it here, I'll probably end up locked in a padded cell, though I have my psychologist's confirmation that I'm not, in fact insane).
Oops, rambling...
Anyhow, my point is that everything, and I mean absolutely EVERYTHING is possible, if you really want it to be.

 

yeha i did. but you will not. dont freak out. life is long and it will get better. i know. just do something that you like. go running or get high or whatever YOU like to do and then know that tommorow will be better.

i was depressed a few months ago bc of college decisions and stuff like that, but once all of theat was over i was realy good again. whats bothering you so much anyway? nything in partivular?

 

Defy our creators and genetically redesign ourselves to live forever and have unlimited or vastly improved comprehension and then travel throughout the universe?- Can I make this happen if I really want it to be?

 

maybe

 

Amanda's Shadow, how do I know tommarow will be better? How do I know it wont be the same?

 

well, I beleive that we have the power to make tommorow better.

and im not religious or anything. thats just what i beleive. when i have a partucularly crappy day, the next day, i wake up, eat something and just Make the day better.

its sunday- so no shcool. go to the park and chill. youll feel better. also eat whatever you feel like. that always makes me happier.

i also want to do outrageously impossible/diffcult things in life (I want to be on broadway, but then i sometimes want to be and anthropologist so im constanlty being torn in 2 directions.) and i get depressed when i think about not succueeding. but i just have to trust myself. and for now, enjoy life

 

hey def dont listen to him.

makno---- you are a mess! lol

althogh we are pirates